Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
WearingRed
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Bad couple of days. (Vent)
WearingRed
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I know this is probably just becuase AF is way heavier and giving me more of the hell she normally does. But I have to say I haven't been the Happy and positive gal I normally am. I have cried the past two day for NO reason! I try to look on the positive side and I just can't see the light today. I tried to think happy thoughts, they didn't work. I tried eating chocolate, FAIL! I can't seem to get out of this. I tried thinking of trying again (which normally help) and All I can think is that I am not pregnant now and I don't want to start over. I am afraid to start trying. I keep telling myself, All is well but I don't feel that way. I feel like I am in the bottom of a well and screaming for help that isn't going to come. Why am I so lost today? I just hope I can get back in the grove positive grove tomorrow. I want this sadness to just GO AWAY! I have been doing so well till AF showed. She is not welcome here any more, I am done with her! It's time for her to leave and take this sadness with her! UGHH.
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Re: Bad couple of days. (Vent)
I'm so sorry. (((HUGS)))
Sunday was kind of a bad day for me as well - lot of crying for no reason. Or because I remembered things about the m/c.
Let's just hope that it is mostly AF and all of the crazy hormones that she brings with her, that is making you feel this badly. I am sure that you be feeling like your positive self in no time. Until then, just go ahead and wallow, eat chocolate, have a glass of wine or whatever makes you feel a little bit better.
I am CD 6 today. My first AF after my miscarriage reminded me of my bleeding during my 2nd pregnancy, as well as the bleeding when I took 3 doses of Misoprostal. I am spotting today, so it was easier to not think about it.
I hope that you feel better!
oh no red! i am so sorry to hear you're having a tough time. i know exactly how you feel. in general, i like to think i have a pretty good attitude... but sometimes when i get down, i get down and OUT. i am a completely different person. i am mean to everyone, especially my husband... i just find myself snapping at people left and right and i KNOW i shouldn't, i know it's rude and they don't deserve it, but i just don't know how to pull myself out of that funk. yesterday was one of those days.
i know blaming it on hormones can sound like an excuse, but i think it really IS hormones. hormones defy all logic and reasoning. you can't convince hormones to lighten up or cheer up, you just have to ride it out. i trulyhope that you start feeling better soon. i know for me, i like to kinda keep track of my really bad days, so that i see yes, they do pass... even when i'm in the midst of those really bad times, i remind myself "this is normal. this is temporary. even though i don't feel anywhere near good right now, i will again, and soon." and sure enough, it always passes and i'm back to myself. i hope you're feeling at least a little more like yourself today. *hugs!*