Well I went to my oncologist for a check up today... I had a blood test last week (including pregnancy test) and I was told today that I am pregnant! My HcG is about 14,000 so they are guessing that I am about 5-8 weeks along.
I prayed so long and hard to get pregnant and now that I have this miracle in my stomach, I cannot keep it. I cannot start any treatments (the only treatments that work for my type of leukemia is one that is extremely toxic to unborn babies or a transplant) therefore I cannot do either while pregnant... If I keep the baby, the leukemia will turn into acute - therefore giving me the possibility of dying. I feel that it would be selfish to keep this baby and it possibly not have a mother to take care of it...
I am going tomorrow for an ultrasound and then to discuss what happens next with my doctor. I need prayers... I prayed so hard for this miracle but unfortunately it came at the wrong time... I am heartbroken over this.
Re: OH MY GOSH... Doctor update
{{{{{HUGS}}}}
When my mother was 6 mos pregnant with me, she was told that she had a brain tumor and that neither of us would ever survive the pregnancy. She had the tumor removed when I was just under a year and went on to have 4 more babies.
I pray for hope, wisdom and courage for you.
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I'm so sorry you are in this position. Regardless of what you decide to do, know that it will be the right decision for your family and that we're here to support you.
~hugs~
Hun that is the most devastating news. I will pray for you. You need to take care of yourself first and foremost. I really am sending you the very best of wishes X
I could not have said it any better. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.