Moms with previous eating disorders

Tricia107 · June 2009

I know this is a touchy subject, and i totally understand not wanting to reply. I kindly ask everyone that replies to this thread be courteous, because I know someone will get all high and mighty about the subject.

Post baby, how are you handeling the weight gain, weight loss and doing it in a safe way?

I am having a hard time with it, DD is 10.5 months old and I am still about 13lbs over pre pregnancy weight (which is 15 lbs over my weight at my wedding less then 3 years ago) I keep finding myself sitting here late at night going over what I ate for the day and I can count on one hand how many crackers I ate. I dont want to fall into this circle again, it brings back so many wounds. I am going to call my doctor on Monday (hes out of town)to sit down and talk about things with him

GracieWK · June 2009

To be completely honest, it's not going well. At all.

I wake up every day and think to myself "am I going to keep my food down today or is today going to be a bad day?"

It sucks. I would never wish an eating disorder on my worst enemy.

VinBert · June 2009

Good luck to you ladies... I know it must be hard. Stay strong!

laurenbug · June 2009

I don't have real experience (I had some eating 'issues' in college, but nothing full-blown...more like stupidity), but just wanted to say that I think you're doing a wonderful thing by being proactive, realizing that you're falling into some negitive habits, and talking to your doctor. Good luck!

GracieWK · June 2009

Tricia, if you ever want to talk about this privately email me at graciewk@gmail.com. I'm interested to hear what your Dr tells you.

HisWifeHerMom · June 2009

Ok, here goes: I was diagnosed with bulemia in 8th grade. Luckily, my friends caught on to it and told my parents who made me go to the doctor while I was in the early stages before I really harmed myself. I haven't done it since but it still affects me as far as my eating habits. If I eat something fattening for breakfast, I have to eat better for the rest of the day and so on. I didn't gain much with my kids and told myself all through pregnancy that my body was for my kids during pregnancy so eat what you want/need to, so it didn't bother me like I thought. I would talk to your doctor if the last pounds are really bothering you. He may be able to give you some tips that will work for you without heading back to your old ways. Good luck.

susie1079 · June 2009

The most important thing is you have recognized that there is a problem again and you are getting help. Good luck to you! Have the strength to stay healthy for your child.

adamwife · June 2009

I've been "recovered" for a while now (over 6 years), but we all know that like any addiction you never truly recover. My older sister had an eating disorder too, and motherhood has effected us differently.

She has slipped back into old ways. She is obsessive about her weight and is constantly counting calories - it's all she ever talks about.

Oddly, being pregnant and going through labor has changed the way I look at my body. I look at it with pride for what it has done and I also look at it as something I want to keep healthy so that I can have more kids and nurse them. Granted, I am unhappy at times with the saggy skin and bigger hips, but I still look at it in amazement for what it has been able to do.

Over the past few years I have started obsessively focusing on eating healthy foods. I don't eat processed foods and only eat what I cook. I saw a show on orthorexia one time, and DH thinks that is what I have (although to a lesser degree). I have become so worried about toxins and what I am putting in my body, that I honestly think it may be some subconcious way of just limiting what I will put into my mouth.

My faith has also helped a lot. I could never treat my body the way I used to - as I now know that this body is a gift from God that shouldn't be disrespected.

I hope you can talk to your doctor. (((((((((HUGS))))))))))

emizer · June 2009

What I want to tell you is a bunch of tips/tricks of how I'm losing weight. What I'm *going* to tell you is that it's awsome you're seeing your doctor. Your health is soooo important to the rest of your child's life. If mommy is sick, baby suffers. Get the help you need. And to channel PnR.... ((hugz))

kelbrian · June 2009

I am not happy with how I look at all, but I am trying very hard to keep control. I have not thrown up (purposefully) since the day I found out that I was pregnant, which is a complete and utter miracle. I had struggled with bulimia for several years prior. I think to myself, "Do I want my husband to find me in a pool of blood, dead? Do I want my daughter knowing that I died from gastric rupture?" That is where I was headed. I do not want to go there again. Ever. I want to see my daughter graduate from high school and college, get married, have babies, grow old.

I do not want to die with my head in a toilet.

ETA: I struggle very much with bingeing still. It's bulimia without the purging. I am overweight now, and it sickens me. I am not quite sure how to approach losing weight in a healthy way.

Rin-Rin · June 2009

honestly not well at all... things were good up until my husbands hospitalization and his stroke... i took a drastic turn for the worst... i couldent cope with the stress and found my self trying to find the bathrooms in the hospital that no one used.... everything i ate would end up there.. to make things worse, brody would be in his stroller facing the wall.... i have sooo much guilt about this and i am in therapy to try to get back to where i was before. i am acutally 28 lbs lighter then before i was pg, stress... my dr is showing some concern as she is seeing a consistent trend of weight loss.... i am being honest with her that yes i am starting to obsess about numbers and what i am eatting.. i thought i didnt lose when i got weighed at my dr appt today and i was upset and sad that i didnt, but i did acutally lose, when she told me that i could feel my self calm down....it is scary and i hate everything about this damn disorder... it is a constant struggle and a constant reminder of how much of a failure i am, i cant beat this thing. i always come back to it.... so i am struggling....

tmp-526751875009833 · June 2009

I have been a "recovered" bulimic for about 6 years now. I was very very stressed that gaining all the weight for my pregnancy would bring it right back on. Luckily I am doing ok. But I do know what kind of a beast it is. I am totally aware that it can creep back on me and take hold again. I think that is part of what has kept me from slipping back. I still am not where I want to be with my weight. But honestly, I have found that I slip back into that old me when I am very depressed. Depression has been something I have struggled with since I was very young. I thought for sure that I would suffer from ppd too. I have certainly had my ups and downs in the past 9 months, but luckily nothing severe. Honestly I think what has helped me avoid it is being very open with my dh. When I was pregnant we had many talks about my fears of ppd and etc. He has forced me to talk about it. Being open with him has made it easier. The eating disorder made me a very sneaky person. Sneaky and lonely. Having open communication with my dh has definitely been what has saved me.

I think it is so awesome of you to be proactive and seek help now, before it spirals beyond your control. I wish you all the best.

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