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GreenEyedGal
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I don't know why but I'm having a mini meltdown.
GreenEyedGal
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I'm on the verge of tears, I wish I knew why. It doesn't help that I haven't seen DH all day and being in his arms is the only way I can feel ok again. Randomly, all of these thoughts of dying during childbirth are rushing through my head. It's so so stupid to think about, I realize this but I just can't seem to block the image of leaving my husband alone with a child. So then I had one of my little "breathing episodes" where I get a sudden shortness of breath. It happens about once every 2-3 weeks and when I'm just sitting on my couch. My heart races and my breathing is intense, it last for like 5 seconds and I'm ok again. Of course, I had to go and Google this and I get all of this stuff about possibly have a blood clot in your chest. It doesn't help that I follow a father's blog where a mother died right after giving childbirth because of the very same reason. So now I'm freaking out and all I want to do is cry in my husband's arms and get a confirmation from my doctor that I'm ok and just horomonal and blowing everything out of proportion.
TTC#1=Feb 2009: 50 mg Clomid+Ovidrel shot+Metformin+Dexamethasone+TI=BFP!
TTC#2=July 2011: Surprise BFP: Chemical Pregnancy
TTC#2=July 2011: Surprise BFP: Chemical Pregnancy
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Re: I don't know why but I'm having a mini meltdown.
OK, step away from the fecking robot and chillax. You are a flower in the garden of awesome... (want me to go on with the logelin refs?lol)
You're having minor panic attacks. They can be normal. They are a way of saying "take a second, and step back. Slow down. Breathe slow and deep."
For me, I have waves like that, and for ME, it's 99% hormonal. I can just feel it. FWIW, I remember A LOT of hormone shifts around 20-24 weeks, and then it seemed to slow down.
You can do this. You ARE doing this. Go hug his pillow or his stinky gym shirt. Then make a list of things he never cleans you wish he would.
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(((HUGS))) I'm sorry you are having these feelings. They odds are very high in your favor that everything will be A Ok! Is there a fun tv show or website you can go to that will make you feel a little better at least until you dh get home? Tel yourself everything will be okay and maybe you will start to believe it at some point!
I'm pretty sure it's not a panic attack because I am calm and relaxed when the breathing thing happens. It literally just happens when I'm watching tv, out of nowhere. With that said, I'm thinking it's a physical thing as opposed to mental.
TTC#2=July 2011: Surprise BFP: Chemical Pregnancy
I'm so sorry that you are struggling right now. I was there 24 hours ago, I understand the fear and worry.
Don't discount the emotional/mental side of pregnancy. I ended up in L&D on Mother's Day due to stress. I *really* thought that I was handling things well, I was aware of my stresses (Army wife stuff) and thought that I was taking sufficient measures to take good care of myself. . . well, the mind is very powerful. Everything ended up fine, but it was frustrating all the same.
Will your DH be home soon? I hope that you are able to get the cuddles and snuggles that you need.
I would certainly talk with your OB at your next appointment and, as Davez suggested, I'd steer clear of Google and any blogs that lead your mind to wander. Stats are on your side that you will be fine. Try not to borrow trouble. I know easier said that done, but I live with it every day given where my DH is. What will be will be. Do all that you can to take care of yourself, but let go of the rest.
Again, I'm sorry that you are feeling the way you are. It sucks. Pregnancy hormones only seem to magnify things. I'm here if you need anything!
that is how my panic attacks manifest! they come from nowhere and freak me the hell out! Totally normal for an attack to come when you are not even anxious. Tell your doctor, though.
I think most of your anxiety is normal, and IF adds to it... but I wish your husband was home to hug you and tell you it is all right... but we will have to do for now! ::hugs::
Maybe you want to go talk to your doctor and help clear your mind about what could go wrong and about your worrying. *hugs*
Mine happen too like that, entirely out of the blue for no rhyme or reason, I asked my doctor and she said I have no physical issues to cause it...that it's just stress that I may not even be aware of.
Thank you so much for calming my nerves, ladies. I feel much better this morning. After hubby came home last night, I just bawled in his arms. He kind of giggled and told me that the pregnancy horomones are getting the best of me. I guess he's right, I'm never been this emotionl and now that I'm halfway through this pregnancy, I guess the anxiety is kicking in.
Of course, I'm still going to bring up the breathing sitation to my doctor but knowing that some of you have the same thing makes me feel a bit better. I know I may sound silly but sometimes you just can't help how you feel! Again, thank you so much for the reassurance. You guys are truly truly the best.
TTC#2=July 2011: Surprise BFP: Chemical Pregnancy