I've been sick pretty much since the end of April. Had the stomach bug and then got slammed with killer allergies that then turned into a sinus infection. Kenley has been sick right along with me AND working on 4 teeth. So needless to say, sleep has been crappy.
We lost a good friend this past weekend and that has been emotionally draining. Kenley and I have been out of town twice to go visit our friend (his widow) and those trips have been long and hard. DH Has been out of town since Saturday night and doesn't get home until tomorrow afternoon. THEN he might be gone all day Friday & Friday night to go see some buddies of his. I really try not to be that wife who won't let her husband go and do things but there is a BIG part of me that just wants to say, I'm exhausted. Take your kid.
I am BEYOND exhausted. Oh and AF just showed up so add major crankiness to the equation.
I'm still upset about losing Bailey, I'm still very emotional about our friend who passed away, I'm so tired I can cry at the drop of a hat.
I mean, I feel like I might snap right now. She is SO fussy and I cannot get anything done. I'm so sick of my dogs...they haven't done anything wrong but since I have no energy, they're just annoying me. I need a vacation, a night out, a night ALONE to SLEEP or something.
Then I sit here and think, my friend just lost her husband and has a 6 week old to take care of, what right do I have to complain about anything?
I just needed to vent. These past 3 weeks have been absolutely craptastic. I need a hug...or a martini
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Sorry! That sounds tough. I can relate. Is there anyone that can watch Kenley so you could have a couple hours to yourself?
Oh Southern. BIG HUGS!!!
I was sort of there a few weeks ago, me sick, baby sick, work annoyed I was out so much....just one thing after another I wanted to jump off a cliff. It was shear exhaustion.
You are definetly carrying a load. I will pray for you and pray somehow you can get the rest and rejevenation you need.
Hang in there sweetie!
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i say be that wife. if you are at that point surely your dh will understand that you need some help right now.
haha thanks
Normally I would ask MIL but she's been sick so I don't want to bother her and want her to get well.
I think you need a hug AND a martini, or 2, or 3. And a day at the spa.
Im really sorry you are going through all of this right now. I'd tell DH how you're feeling and see if he can't give you a break or see if you could find a way for you both to take a break together? He seems like a pretty cool H from what you've said about him before, maybe he'll understand that you're super stressed and just need some TLC, ya know?
BTW Im sorry for your friend....I would be an absolute wreck if I had lost my husband at any point in my life, but after just having a baby I dont know if I'd survive!!!! I dont know her, but you can bet she is in my prayers! And so are you Southern, I hope you find some peace (and that martini) soon.
He's got some friends coming in from out of town from Cali and I don't know when he'll get to see them again...so I feel bad asking him to stay home. I know it would mean a lot to him and that's the only reason he'd even consider going out there. If MIL is feeling better, Kenley and I are supposed to go over there and do some sewing on Friday...so I'll get a little breather.
Don't worry about being "that wife". If your DH was away for work I can guarantee there was some fun time in there too! He owes you a night off. I can't believe he'd even think about going out all day & night after being away for a few days. Just tell him how you feel and that you need some time to recouperate. He can see the friend some other time. Could the friend come to your place to visit DH while you relax or sleep?
Sorry you're having such a crappy time. It seems that when it rains - it pours!
I would just explain how you're feeling to DH - I'm sure he'll be completely understanding and will stay home and take care if his family. If not, then be "that wife".
I hope you can all get some rest and things get better for you soon.