Test on Monday

Dochas · May 2009

Hi - I've posted a couple of times, but it's painful and I don't come here too often. My husband came with me to my last appt and met the doctor - RE specialist. (I had a 2nd miscarriage) He likes the doctor as much as I do and we both like that he's aggressive. So I'm having that x-ray (hysto something) on Monday. It's odd that I have to hope he finds something wrong with me. Really the opposite of how we live our lives, isn't it? I had a huge amount of blood taken at the appt too and they're doing all kinds of different tests. Then I have to have more blood drawn on the 3 day of my next period. So I guess pretty soon I'll know what's going on. And if this is ever going to happen. A baby has been the plan for so long, I don't know what my next move will be if I can't have one. But, life will go on as it always does I guess. I guess my rage has passed for now.

I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow. I'm glad I'm going to be able to get through it as I just don't want this to defeat me. I'm so afraid this is going to change me into a bitter hag. Well, it's really nice to be able to at least spill here. Thanks again to anyone reading.