I have been pretty well since my 4th loss. I am coming up on some more anniversaries and EDDs and am just sad about everything again. 4/4/08 I found out I was pregnant for the second time and my 3rd EDD is 4/15/09. I almost feel I had more of a connection with my 3rd pregnancy than the first two, since I watched my baby growing and my hopes and dreams growing along with him. Sometimes I can't believe that I really have lost 4 babies. I have trouble taking it all in.
I had a craptastic day (unrelated to my losses) and I just feel sad about everything. I can't even verbalize what I am feeling or trying to say. I just need to say that I am sad and stressed waiting for our test results from my 4th pregnancy.