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CassieD
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Feeling sorry for myself
CassieD
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in Infertility
Hi ladies. I don't typically post over here (I don't post a whole lot anywhere, which you can tell by my post count) but I'm feeling the need for some support tonight from women who have been there and done that. I've been going to my regular obgyn and just made another appointment for next week to chat with him again and hopefully get a referral to an RE. Our first cycle on Clomid was a complete bust, and while I realize we're still early in the IF saga, I can't help but dwell on the thought of, "What if this never works?" All my life I've wanted to be a mom. I babysat and nannied all through high school and college, because taking care of babies and kids is all I've ever wanted to do. It's all I've thought about since we got married 4 years ago. It's all I think about now. I see my friends getting pregnant and having babies, and I can feel myself becoming more and more bitter that it's not me. While I think that I might persue adoption one day, I just can't bear the thought of never having biological children. But on the other hand, I look at the stress that this is already having on my marriage and myself, and I can't imagine what IVF or something similar would do to me either.And while DH is supportive and wants this as much as I do, he just doesn't truly understand why I feel the way I do.
Thanks for listening to me vent. I know there are so many women whose journies have been so much longer and more painful, so I'm sorry if this offends any of you. I wish you all the best of luck.
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Re: Feeling sorry for myself
You are allowed!! ?I think any woman who has IF issues goes through this process of self pity...and I think we are allowed!! ?
But, I will tell you, the one thing that I hold dear is positive thoughts brings postive action...Give yourself some time, talk to your dr see what they say and take it one step at a time!
I feel bad about feeling bad about this stuff cause I have a 2 yr old son, and feel like I have no right to be sad about having trouble ttc..but I do and certainly hope that I don't offend because of this! ??
We are all here for the same reason, to give each other support through this process...GL?
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Hey there....if anyone understands your feelings, its the ladies on this board and we are not here to judge.
On a side note, I think this is really strange.....My name is also Cassie D, I just moved to DFW from KY, I am also 26, and like you I have ovulatory issues. My first clomid cycle was 3/08. Just thought it was odd how similar our stats are!!
Darn, you totally caught me. I was trying to steal your identity!
That's really crazy!
And thanks for the words of support.
I know how you feel. ?IF sucks. ?There is no two ways around it. ? ?It's okay to feel bad. ?We all do. ?If there is one tiny silver lining to all of this it is that you will find out you are way stronger than you ever thought you were and you can do a whole lot more than you ever thought you could.
Good Luck with your journey.?
Thanks. These are words of wisdom. :-)
I know how you feel. I was never really a "kid" person (and I'm still not really), though, so the feelings I've had have sort of taken me by surprise. I guess I never realized how much I wanted biological children until I realized I might not be able to have them.
IF is so, so hard, but it's really helped me to find other women who've gone through it for support -- both on these boards and IRL.
GL on your journey.