I had some spotting yesterday. I FREAKED OUT. I know that there is nothing one can do to prevent anything at this stage in the game, but I totally lost it! I called the RE, and they lovingly told me to come on in. I had blood drawn, which put my HcG at 899 (was 456 2 days ago) and that doubled. My progesterone was at 88. Both good things. They did an US but of course could not see a thing yet as I am about 4w 5d. The tech did say that my lining was 'still chubby' and that my ovaries were grossly oversized. they were 7.7cm and 11.4cm. (supposed to be between 1 and 3 cm) I am to take it easy. The cramping is from my ovaries, and the bleeding is from implantation maybe.
I know that every pregnant mom has this fear, but how do you live your life with it? I worry constantly, and I am always "not bonding" with this new life in my mind for fear that something will happen.
If you have read all of this, you are a saint! I am just freaked out, and I just want to be happy that we are finally pregnant. Cant I just do that? What is wrong with me?