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Cycle Failed :( & Question about LP on Injects (SAIFW)

Well, the spotting was the beginning of the end. I started AF lastnight. I was so sad and totally defeated yesterday but DH made me feel a lot better.  He just keeps saying that we can not lose hope & we will keep on trying. And that if the time comes, we will adopt. I haven't wrapped my heart around that yet. It is a very terrifying and heartbreaking thought for me. I don't know how to accept in my heart that I may not ever have our child growing inside of me.  I'm sad this morning but have accepted it. I have to stop blaming myself for everything. Although getting a bad cold last time, having it end in a m/c & then being sick this time and a BFN...it is hard not to make the connection.  I've got to stop thinking about why it failed. Thats what I am working on now. I keep second guessing myself, thinking maybe I shouldn't have asked to start the lovenox before implantation, or if I hadn't been under so much stress....it could have been any or none of these things, but it doesn't matter. The fact is that it didn't work, I'm still not safely pregnant after a 2 years with our RE.

Today is only 14 dp trigger, so about 12 dpo & yesterday when the bleeding started would have been 11dpo.  I've never had an AF after follistim, only m/c bleeding. The two times I o'd on clomid my lp was about 14-15 days.  Does this seem like too short of an lp? Am I dealing with yet another problem now? I'm going to call my nurse and let them know today.

We are going on vacation to Miami to see DH's family on April 8th (thank god, we both need it).  Maybe we'll start another cycle in May or maybe we'll wait a little longer. Don't know yet. IF & the losses have caused us so much heartache and problems. I will be working on becoming me again, which will not be an easy task considering we are the only ones out of everyone we associate with that doesn't have kids. It seems as though once I make a breakthrough in coming away from the jealousy & bitterness, something else (this failed cycle) set me that much farther back.

DH and I are starting to get close again & we want to make our marriage strong again. I have totally neglected him, his needs & the pain & stress & loss that he himself has gone through over this 2 year nightmare.  I'll still be around on the board, lurking, posting when I've got something that may help someone. But I also want to take some time away. This has been the focus for way too long. 

Thanks for the support & please let me know if I should be concerned about this lp. Maybe there is a progesterone problem now? They only check it when they do the beta. It has always been great when pg.

TIA.

 

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Re: Cycle Failed :( & Question about LP on Injects (SAIFW)

  • I'm so sorry for your BFN.  Keep your head up!  My lp was always short on Follstim.  I started spotting 11 and 9dpiui both cycles I was on it.  I was freaked out too, but my doctor said that was a normal reaction.  We even thought when I started spotting at 9dpiui (IUI #4) that maybe it was implantation spotting.  He did a progesterone and beta check (which he normally doesn't any more) and it showed I wasn't KU obviously, just about to see AF. 

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  • I am so sorry for your BFN.  Sounds like you will take the time you need to nuture yourself, your DH and your relationship! I wish you lots of luck and peace! We are always here for you and hope to see you around!

    Big hugs!

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  • I'm so very sorry. It just isn't fair!

    I remember I asked my RE something similar, and he said they count the LP as starting the day after the trigger, so my LP wasn't as short as I thought it was.

    ((hugs)) to you and I hope you have a wonderful vacation!!

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  • I'm so, so sorry about the BFN. ((HUGS))

    I don't think 11 days is too short...they say under 10 is bad but 11 is fine, especially if it was just spotting yesterday and full flow started today, which would be 12 days. I've heard Clomid can lengthen your LP, so that might be why you had a longer cycle on that drug and a shorter cycle on injects.

    I wish you tons of luck. I can't wait to see you over on SAIF.

  • I am new to TTTC so i do not know your struggle, but i am so very sorry to hear about your heartache.

    I dont' have anything to say to make it better...just know that you have support on this board.

    RE: LP, both my OBGYN and my RE have dismissed the short-LP phenomenon as a problem.  They told me that this is the thought of many older doctors, but most young docs who keep up with the latest research now do not attribute difficulties TTC to a short LP.  Also my RE doesn't put too much faith in the absolute progesterone number....as long as it shows you ovulated then that seems to be all he is concerned with.

    Go on vacation and hug your husband.  TTTC is hard on a marraige...you are doing the right thing by doing your best to reconnect!!!  GOOD LUCK and we hope to see you back sharing wonderful news very soon:-)

    TTC since 2008
    dx MFI March 2009, low motility and low morph
    dx Stage I/II endometriosis September 2009.
    Multiple failed clomid, injecitble and IUI cycles
    IVF #1 Janaury 2011: 28 retrieved, 22 fert normally
    5dt of two beautiful blasts (6 frozen)
    BFP 2/10/2011 (holy cow!!!)
    1st u/s 2/24: 2 gestational sacs, it's twins! Only 1 heartbeat, Baby A, 110 BPM
    2nd u/s 2/28: 2 heartbeats! It's twins!
    3rd u/s 3/7: Lost Baby B :-( Baby A looking good.
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  • I am sorry about the failed cycle. Enjoy your break, they really do help with both reconnecting with your marriage and giving you new strength to continue to fight this battle!
    A lot of years and a million tears finally led me to you.
    After 7 years trying to concieve, 3 failed IUIs and 2 failed IVFs, my third IVF was a success!
    My Christmas baby turned into a turkey bird! Dillon Richard was born at 34 weeks, 5 days on November 28, 2009 after 10 weeks on bedrest for preeclampsia.
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  • I'm so sorry sweetie, it's not fair. :( hugs to you xo
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  • I just want to say how terribly sorry I am.  I've had 2 losses too.  I always thought I would never comes to terms with not being able to get pregnant and keep a baby.  We tried for almost 4 years and then I thought "I just want to be a mom."  Why is it so important to have to have a biological baby?  It took a while, but when it was time, I was ready to be a mom in another way.

    Now that we have Ben I have no desire to ever be pregnant.  I know it's hard to say when you're struggling with IF, and it's important that you know you're not ready to adopt.  I know I had to make sure that I was ready to give up the idea of having a bio baby.  2 weeks after we decided to adopt, I went to my filing cabinet after my second miscarriage and threw all the info from the RE away, and the next day we got a call to come and get our son.  In my heart I knew this was a sign.  I had to be truthful to myself about what I was ready for.

    I wish you the very best!!

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  • I have had some short LP's too, on Follistim cycles.  On Clomid, w/o progesterone supps, I would have 13-14 day LP's.  On my last few Follistim cycles, I had 11-12 day LP's.  My RE said as long as they were 10 days or longer, it was ok. 

    I am sorry this cycle didn't work for you.  Breaks are a good thing, though.  We just took one for the last 3 months, and it was a good thing for our mental health & our relationship.  Hugs to you.

    TTC #1 since 6/07, Dx = Ovulatory dysfunction, DOR, and autoimmune issues ~ 4 Clomid cycles, 1 Femara Cycle, 6 Injectible IUI cycles~ 4 Chemical PG's ~ IVF #1 Dec '09 = BFP!! Beta 8dp3dt = 68 10dp3dt = 276 16dp3dt = 1511 ~ First U/S 1/14 = 3 Heartbeats!!! Lost Baby C at 8w5d Emergency Cerclage at 22wks saved our babies lives Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
  • i just wanted to say that i am sorry.  take the break you need and work on helping yourself feel better again and renewing the bond with your DH *hugs*  enjoy your trip!
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