MH was sympathetic of me stressing so he bought me a store brand HPT the one with a cross for + well i apparently don't know how to poas because it bled through halfway and basically gave me a negative. i'm so discouraged and scared and now he's mad i'm giving up...but seriously what do expect after last year, i'm so scared for 9am to come i have some FRER downstairs but doon't i have to wait like 5 hours to test again?
BFP #1 May 2000 ~ Darren was born Jan 13, 2001 ~ 6lbs 2oz 191/2" ~ 39 wks due to low fluid, otherwise perfect pregnancy
July 2004 abnormal pap, colposcopy and LEEP procedure ~ paps every 3 months all normal for 1 year
2006 all clear to start TTC
HSG Nov 2007 ~ all normal except mild left tube blockage
BFP #2 Dec 2007 EDD sept 3 ~ missed m/c ~ Feb 14 2008 ~ 9wk 2d D&C
BFP #3 Apr 2008 EDD Dec 10 ~ ectopic ~ May 2008 ~ 5wk 2d ~ emergency lap surgery, lost left tube
BFP #4 Jul 2008 EDD May 5 ~ missed m/c ~ Aug 2008 ~ 5wk 2d D&C - trisomy 16
RPL panel Aug 2008 ~ diagnosed with compound hetero MTHFR
BFP #5 Nov 2008 EDD Jul 31 ~ blighted Ovum ~ Dec 2008 ~ 4wk 3d ~ natural m/c at home for my birthday
BFP #6 Feb 2009 EDD Oct 15 ~ 4wk 3d ~ chemical pregnancy ~ Mar 2008
BFP #7 May 18 2009 ~ Gabriel Michael ~ Jan 19, 2010 ~ 7lbs 2oz 21"
TTC again since Jan 2011
BFP #8 Jun 2011 EDD Jan 20 ~ 5wk 6d ~ missed m/c ~ D&C
July - Hysterscopy removed some polyps, all clear for IUI with clomid
Aug-Oct - IUI - with Clomid all BFN
Nov-Jan - IUI - with femara and trigger = BFN
back to TTC naturally on our own hoping for another miracle.

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Re: took another test.....
Viv,
I know what you're going through. I must have POAS about 15x's. I thought DH was going to strangle me! Like Tonya said please just try to breathe tonight, find something to do to relax and call for those #'s in the AM. I'm praying for you girl!
OK, the rule is that you have to stop POAS after you get a BFP! But since you are a bad girl, I will tell you not to believe any tests other than FRERs. I have only ever had luck with FRERs so I don't allow any other brands in my house. I also never tested at night & only ever used FMU.
Try to hang in there until the morning! Make yourself a cup of hot (decaf) tea & try to relax--hard, I know.
On another note, I wanted to tell you how much I enjoy your makeup blog. I hope this doesn't sound stalker-ish, but... Even though I don't wear much makeup, I find watching your blog so relaxing for some reason. You are just really good at what you do. I noticed that you got the 88 color pallett at your job--what do you do exactly?
Hopefully God will send you a girly girl so you have someone close to share your makeup & beauty passion with!
lol this def got my mind off it thanks for making me smile! i actually work at TD bank but they have their own intercompany type "ebay" thing so i got it from the girl who runs the website on the 88 video.
July 2004 abnormal pap, colposcopy and LEEP procedure ~ paps every 3 months all normal for 1 year
2006 all clear to start TTC
HSG Nov 2007 ~ all normal except mild left tube blockage
BFP #2 Dec 2007 EDD sept 3 ~ missed m/c ~ Feb 14 2008 ~ 9wk 2d D&C
BFP #3 Apr 2008 EDD Dec 10 ~ ectopic ~ May 2008 ~ 5wk 2d ~ emergency lap surgery, lost left tube
BFP #4 Jul 2008 EDD May 5 ~ missed m/c ~ Aug 2008 ~ 5wk 2d D&C - trisomy 16
RPL panel Aug 2008 ~ diagnosed with compound hetero MTHFR
BFP #5 Nov 2008 EDD Jul 31 ~ blighted Ovum ~ Dec 2008 ~ 4wk 3d ~ natural m/c at home for my birthday
BFP #6 Feb 2009 EDD Oct 15 ~ 4wk 3d ~ chemical pregnancy ~ Mar 2008
BFP #7 May 18 2009 ~ Gabriel Michael ~ Jan 19, 2010 ~ 7lbs 2oz 21"
TTC again since Jan 2011
BFP #8 Jun 2011 EDD Jan 20 ~ 5wk 6d ~ missed m/c ~ D&C
July - Hysterscopy removed some polyps, all clear for IUI with clomid
Aug-Oct - IUI - with Clomid all BFN
Nov-Jan - IUI - with femara and trigger = BFN
back to TTC naturally on our own hoping for another miracle.
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