ick.
long story short, she is the reason i grew with an anxiety disorder and perfectionism, not to mention little to no self esteem for most of my life.
i had been successful in putting her off about visiting the baby for awhile now.i hadn't got a birthday card in 3 years and have been specifically NOT invited to christmas for about 5 years now...
and she is OBSESSED with babies. like, talks about other people's babies nonstop, ignores my 12 year old brother but will go on and on about her friends babies, writes long poems about jack and her stepgrandkids. her stepson and daughterinlaw lost their twins at 23 weeks and she is still, 7 months later, writing long blog entries about how they treated HER badly and refused to "let her grieve properly" by not letting her hold the dead babies and she has a shrine to the twins at her house. yeah. certifiable for sure.
anyway, after weeks of at least 2-3 phone calls a day (i stopped answering) plus an email every day and an IM every other i finally caved and am letting her visit tonight. i am so dreading it and she better enjoy it because i don't see it happening again in the near future. i am so dreading it. i hope jack sleeps the whole time. it is going to make my stomach turn to let her hold him. grr.
if you read all this, thanks. i needed to get it out somewhere safe!
Re: my mom is coming in 1.5 hrs...yuck.
(((hugs)))
My mom is bat*shiit*crazy too. I feel for you.
Here's hoping for a brief, painless visit.
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i am seriously considering pregaming it as soon as i am done pumping...
I get really, um, verbose while buzzed, so pregaming would be bad for me. Afterward, though...all bets would be off.
see, i wish i could grow the balls to just tell her off once and for all, but i can't seem to do it...maybe i should go grab the Captain and get to it!