TTC after 35
indianasunshine
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Me 43, DH 49 Married November 3, 2007
TTC #1 since November 2007
First RE appointment May 13, HSG 5/17- tubes are clear, SA - very good, FSH 6.8,
rubella immunity, saline sonogram 7/2 - uterine polyps, hysteroscopy date FINALLY 9/4! Blood pressure and thyroid are under control! Come on BFP!!!!
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IUI#1 1/14 , AF=BFN 1/28, IUI #2 3/9, AF=BFN 3/20
Cycle 20 IVF #1 = BFP!!! Beta #1- 196 Beta #2- 784
Egg retrieval 5/1 - 11 eggs! Update 5/2 - 9 mature, 7 fertilized!
Embryo transfer 5/6 - transferred 2 beautiful blasts and have one snowbaby
Induction scheduled for 01/11/10 - 38 weeks, 1 day
April 3, 2012 FET with snowbaby (identical twins) BFN and a big broken heart
Moving on to DE
8/2012-Donor chosen! 9/2012-12/2012-Donor passed all testing, off BC pills, waiting to complete 2 full cycles. 12/16/2012-cannot move forward with donor, cycles not regulating. 12/17-New proven donor 1/11- started Lupron on our baby boy's 3rd birthday
It's a NO!
indianasunshine
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in TTC after 35
IUI #1 is a bust. ?AF showed today while I was at work. ?I really had hoped that spotting was nothing because it did stop, but then it started up again this afternoon and gradually got worse. ?I am going to call the RE tomorrow to see what is next. ?I am tempted to ask about going straight to IVF. ?I just don't understand how 39 million sperm can't find 6 eggs. ?It's seems crazy to me to do 2 more IUIs. I will be 40 in July, and I really want a 2009 baby. ?I am an only child and have always hated it, so I want more than one. ?I was sort of excited about my possibility of multiples with the 6 eggs, but it didn't work out this time. ?It's on to cycle 17. ?I am on my 4th glass of wine, so I apologize if I am rambling but I am so sad. ?There was nothing worse than telling my mom and grandma that it didn't work. ?My mom cried! I feel like such a failure. ?Thank you to everyone for your good wishes. ?I know I will be back in the saddle soon.
Me 43, DH 49 Married November 3, 2007
TTC #1 since November 2007
First RE appointment May 13, HSG 5/17- tubes are clear, SA - very good, FSH 6.8,
rubella immunity, saline sonogram 7/2 - uterine polyps, hysteroscopy date FINALLY 9/4! Blood pressure and thyroid are under control! Come on BFP!!!!
My Blog
IUI#1 1/14 , AF=BFN 1/28, IUI #2 3/9, AF=BFN 3/20
Cycle 20 IVF #1 = BFP!!! Beta #1- 196 Beta #2- 784
Egg retrieval 5/1 - 11 eggs! Update 5/2 - 9 mature, 7 fertilized!
Embryo transfer 5/6 - transferred 2 beautiful blasts and have one snowbaby
Induction scheduled for 01/11/10 - 38 weeks, 1 day
April 3, 2012 FET with snowbaby (identical twins) BFN and a big broken heart
Moving on to DE
8/2012-Donor chosen! 9/2012-12/2012-Donor passed all testing, off BC pills, waiting to complete 2 full cycles. 12/16/2012-cannot move forward with donor, cycles not regulating. 12/17-New proven donor 1/11- started Lupron on our baby boy's 3rd birthday Egg retrieval 2/27 - 27 eggs, 24 mature, 19 fertilized
Embryo transfer 3/4 - 2 beautiful, hatching blasts and nothing left to freeze. Beta #1 461 9dp5dt. Beta #2 1230 11dp5dt.
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Re: It's a NO!
You're not a failure...far from it.
Sorry it didn't work.
I am so sorry! It just doesn't make sense. You think you have all these eggs and all the sperm, why can't the meet??? It sucks! I just had my 3rd IUI, first on injects and now I'm benched with a cyst. I am 37 so I'm up there in age with you! I am having 2 IVF consults in the next few weeks! I'm OOP so each IUI runs $3-4K..why not have IVF with much better odds?? Are you OOP? If I were you and I had insurance I would run straight to IVF!
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Oh no! I am so sorry. I have been praying for good news from you. I am so terribly sorry that the IUI didn't work for you. I wish I had some words of wisdom or comfort for you, but instead I'll send you hugs.
I will be keeping you in my prayers I'm sorry you are having to drink it but enjoy youur wine tonight.
And you are so not a failure. (((hugs)))
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Oh no! I saw your post and my heart sank. I know how disappointing it must be. Do NOT feel like a failure -- you did not let anyone down, you rmother is just disappointed with the situation -- as you are. Try (and I know its hard) not to let the pressure of time stress you out or to think too far ahead to baby #2. Take it one day at a time and just believe you will have the baby you desire...it may not come as fast and as easily as you had hoped, but IT WILL COME....some way. And all of the struggle will be forgotten.
I will be thinking of you and sending you good thoughts. Drink up sista...;)
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I am so sorry. Don't get too discouraged. Just remember all these ladies here with their stories in their siggies that didn't have luck the first IUI and now have babies. I hope you feel OK this morning. I had those 4 drown my sorrows glasses of wine before and sometimes it hurts.
Lots of good thought and let us know what you RE says.?
Oh Indiana....I am soooo sorry, I've been stalking the board waiting to see if it had happened for you and when I saw this my heart sank.....I am so sorry it didn't work for you this time...and I repeat, THIS TIME....it will happen, I know it will....you are not a failure!!! Keep your spirits up, drink a bunch of wine and talk with your RE....perhaps IVF will bring better results....Lots of hugs coming your way and I've put your name on the convent list of retired nuns who will be praying for you day and night....they did it for me
Hang in there Indiana! Your time will come.
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iui bfn are never easy. I've had 11 of them so I know 1st hand.
Hang in there and know we're thinking about you.
Oh, Indy.
I'm so sorry to read this. My heart aches for you.
As everyone else has said, you are NOT a failure. You are doing everything you can to make this happen, and it will happen for you.
((((((hugs))))))
I'm sorry. Hugs.
I'll be 40 in June and know about the pressure.
If you can afford IVF, I say go for it. You get so much more information about your fertility and potential problems with IVF that you can't get from IUI.
However it is a huge financial commitment and emotionally and physically, it is hard to do (at least for me).
We jumped right to IVF after our first IUI failed. I didn't have time to waste. I didn't want to go through months of IUI. I wanted an answer and a baby right now!
I caution you though that IVF does not solve all your problems. It just gives you more insight and helps you rule out some possible issues.
Of course, here I am 1.5 years later and still no baby, but for us, it was the right choice to go right to IVF.
oh, no - I am so sorry
I'm sorry to here your news. I follow your blog even though we don't know each other. Somehow I think that if I send enough good juju to all my fellow over 35ers, it will happen for all of us! Keep your head up and please don't beat yourself up. I know it must be a hard decision on what to do next, but stay positive as much as possible and know that it does happen for people, sometimes it takes a couple tries. Hang in there - you have a lots of people pulling for you. :-)
shannon
Indiana, I'm so sorry. I don't normally post on this board but have seen you post a few questions here and there on the TTTC board. I've been following your story and was really hoping for a BFP for you. ((( BIG HUGS )))
Marisa
Reading your post took me right back to my first IUI. I'm so sorry, I know right where you're at. I was just so sure the IUI was going to work and I had told everyone all about it. Including my boss, coworkers, friends, mom and sisters. Then when I got the call that it was a negative, I fell apart. I was crying so hard I had to go home, I couldn't pull my act together. I was a complete mess and the whole world knew about it! I understand that feeling of failure on top of your own personal pain. It didn't help either to learn the week before that a 28 year-old niece was two months pregnant with twins (I had just turned 41)! I'm now on my third IUI, my results come in on Tuesday. I've kept it mostly to myself and trying not to think too much about it. That seems to work better for me. Don't be too hard on yourself, you're not a failure!