::Eastie::

Cheenomae

How's Ethan feeling? Mason's croup turned in to a super dramatic cold with a never ending fever. We are home today for the third work day in a row. This shit is the suck for sure!

Eastie156

I hope this works. I keep trying to respond but get an "over capacity" msg here!

We are also home. 3rd day for us with a fever over 102... Make it go away!

Eastie156

Where the heck did my siggy go?

Cheenomae

Oh no, that's what Mason's fever is at, too. Are you just alternating ibuprofen and Tylenol? Poor kiddos...poor mamas. Lol! My siggy reverted back to my old one, too. #-o

Eastie156

Yes, I'm alternating Tylenol/Motrin. Poor guys!

I can't fix my siggy. I've tried three times.

Eastie156

Yes, I'm alternating Tylenol/Motrin. Poor guys!

I can't fix my siggy. I've tried three times.

princezjk

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments. (I know there are lots of women on this board who have been here longer, gone through much worse, and are not pregnant, and to be honest I am just as angry that they are still here too. I have a long list of women in my head who I hope and pray everyday that they someday get to hold there baby.) It is just so hard to see new people come and go so easily. I had to change my signature today to read pgal/pal because I realized that I actually know people who are pal. I just don't understand how in 17 actively trying cycles we have only conceived one time, and that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks 5 days, so we had a sac, an empty sac. At this point I have stopped believing that my body can do this. I finally have a real set in feeling that my body is dysfunctional. And all I can do is wait until October. And here is the thing I always push these thoughts to the back of my mind, and tell myself to keep moving forward, to stay positive, that in 2 weeks you could look back and laugh because now you are pregnant. But I have been telling myself that for the past 6 months and I am not pregnant. So I might as well face that this is where I am at. 

 I wish I had some words of comfort or encouragement for you, but I can offer big (((HUGS))) and lots of T&P.  I am so sorry you have to feel this way, but you are more than entitled to.  Fx for everyone on this board!   

skategirl128

 Big hugs snegde! I am sending my Elster tomorrow. Horrible weather today and another interview rounded out my day today! I am so sorry fir the delay for my elf!,

 

I think I attached a pip of the cake pops. I never have any luck with this!

 

 

QOTW no vacation planned here. Too much going on! Still waiting to hear about this promotion. I had my meet and great today and a final interview on Friday. Eek!

 

skategirl128- I want to see those cake pops. and are things getting more serious with this "friend"? 

Well I hope I solved the cake pop question. I'm not sure what to make of this friendship. I've never had such a connection to a guy before, and he really does care about us. He's been such a support and I truly would have been lost without him. I'm grateful for the friendship although I'm starting to really have feelings for him. It's scary and new and terrifying! I'm so afraid of moving things to the next level with him. So hard to explain. I've never been this way before!

skategirl128

peelester429:

Question of the Week: Are you going on vacation this summer? If so where? 

Yep!  To the beach for the first week of August... can't wait!

How is everyone doing? Any updates to TTCAL efforts or just life in general? Anything awesome or vent worthy?   

I'm in TTGP hell.  No AF, no BFP.  First cycle on clomid, had 7DPO blood draw to confirm ovulation, expected AF on Monday.  I'm an emotional wreck.

ETA:  This is a link to the awesome gift I got from my elf, alysonjill.  I haven't taken it off yet:

https://www.paper-source.com/cgi-bin/paper/item/Troubles-Fly-Away-Bird-Necklace/3303_012/417990.html

 (sorry, I suck at PIP) 

 

love the Elster gift! So awesome! I'm sorry you're having a rough time. Big hugs!

 

princezjk

princezjk- Hoping your anxiety has been in check.

It has been going okay.  I am trying to keep my anxiety and stress in check, but not always easy.  I definitely find that this board is a huge support.  Between you ladies, my support group IRL and my therapist, I think I am getting a handle on things.   

 Question of the Week: Are you going on vacation this summer? If so where?

Not planning on an vacations this summer, DH and I don't really like to travel this time of year.  We are thinking of getting away in September, but not sure where to.

 

How is everyone doing? Any updates to TTCAL efforts or just life in general? Anything awesome or vent worthy?  

 I am still TTA for 2 more cycles, but I have started using FF to track my temps.  I am not sure if I am doing it right though because my chart is a hot mess!  At least I have 2 more cycles to practice and get it right before it really counts.

 

 Hope everyone else is having a good week.  (((Hugs))) to anyone that needs them, especially everyone with an EDD in the upcoming week. 

ball.and.chain

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments.

I've been doing a little bit of that myself.  I'm sorry you're having such a hard time, snegde.  I was talking to my therapist today about how hard it is to accept that for most people, having a baby is NBD and yet for some of us...

I am mostly doing OK.  I started WW again last week and somehow managed to lose 5.8 lbs in the first week.  WTF!  I don't know how that happened but I will take it.  If I can lose 10 before my next FET (September-ish), I will be happy.

I had my blood drawn yesterday for karyotyping.  We should get results back in about 2 weeks, at which point we should also have the results from the pregnancy tissue.  I have an appointment with my RE on 8/2 to go over test results and talk about how to approach our next attempt.

I sent a card to my Elfster Bumpie today but will be sending more later.  I haven't received anything yet.

QOTD: We are spending a week at a lake in Maine in August.  Can't wait!

 

Heeb918

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments. (I know there are lots of women on this board who have been here longer, gone through much worse, and are not pregnant, and to be honest I am just as angry that they are still here too. I have a long list of women in my head who I hope and pray everyday that they someday get to hold there baby.) It is just so hard to see new people come and go so easily. I had to change my signature today to read pgal/pal because I realized that I actually know people who are pal. I just don't understand how in 17 actively trying cycles we have only conceived one time, and that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks 5 days, so we had a sac, an empty sac. At this point I have stopped believing that my body can do this. I finally have a real set in feeling that my body is dysfunctional. And all I can do is wait until October. And here is the thing I always push these thoughts to the back of my mind, and tell myself to keep moving forward, to stay positive, that in 2 weeks you could look back and laugh because now you are pregnant. But I have been telling myself that for the past 6 months and I am not pregnant. So I might as well face that this is where I am at. 

So sorry you are having such a hard time. If you don't mind me asking, are you waiting for October to see an RE bc of the 12 month of TTC rule? 

alleycat39

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments. (I know there are lots of women on this board who have been here longer, gone through much worse, and are not pregnant, and to be honest I am just as angry that they are still here too. I have a long list of women in my head who I hope and pray everyday that they someday get to hold there baby.) It is just so hard to see new people come and go so easily. I had to change my signature today to read pgal/pal because I realized that I actually know people who are pal. I just don't understand how in 17 actively trying cycles we have only conceived one time, and that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks 5 days, so we had a sac, an empty sac. At this point I have stopped believing that my body can do this. I finally have a real set in feeling that my body is dysfunctional. And all I can do is wait until October. And here is the thing I always push these thoughts to the back of my mind, and tell myself to keep moving forward, to stay positive, that in 2 weeks you could look back and laugh because now you are pregnant. But I have been telling myself that for the past 6 months and I am not pregnant. So I might as well face that this is where I am at. 

(sorry I am just seeing this post now) This is when I wish I lived around the corner and could come over to offer you a real life, in person hug. This journey plain old sucks. I wait anxiously each month, praying to hear good news for you, and feel some of your pain when AF shows up. Your ability to be a source of strength to everyone here, while you are feeling your own pain, is very admirable. Just so many hugs for you right now.

alleycat39

Extra hugs to all the ladies here, who I wish didn't still have to be here, especially this month. 

QOTW: We are spending a few weekends down at the shore this summer since DH's parents rented a house for the month of July. We just booked tickets to go to Chicago over Labor Day weekend.

TTC/TTA updates: Well, ironically I started to bleed (induced by Provera) last Wednesday, which was my EDD. The good news though with that is at least my body responded to the Provera. Now I need to wait, pray, and hope that I get AF in August (I have a history of PCOS, so we'll see how that goes). Once AF arrives, I will have to go in for imaging to make sure my uterus is actually all healed and clear...and then finally, after 9 months of waiting, we should be cleared to TTC. 

alleycat39

Eliz77:

Nothing awesome to share, just vent worthy stuff...It's been a lousy week. We had to euthanize two horses at work yesterday, my brother's BIL passed away and my windshield cracked. My RE appointment has been pushed back a week-on my EDD of course...and that complicates things because my H has the original date off and now has to waste another vacation day to make the appointment. Just not enough wine in this world right now! 

So sorry, Eliz, for how crappy your week has been. Hugs to you on all accounts.  

alleycat39

peelester429:

Question of the Week: Are you going on vacation this summer? If so where? 

Yep!  To the beach for the first week of August... can't wait!

How is everyone doing? Any updates to TTCAL efforts or just life in general? Anything awesome or vent worthy?   

I'm in TTGP hell.  No AF, no BFP.  First cycle on clomid, had 7DPO blood draw to confirm ovulation, expected AF on Monday.  I'm an emotional wreck.

ETA:  This is a link to the awesome gift I got from my elf, alysonjill.  I haven't taken it off yet:

https://www.paper-source.com/cgi-bin/paper/item/Troubles-Fly-Away-Bird-Necklace/3303_012/417990.html

 (sorry, I suck at PIP) 

So happy that you are enjoying the necklace! It is my way of being able to give you more than just a virtual hug So sorry that you are going through TTGP hell- this journey is nothing but crappy. Sending many hugs and positive thoughts your way. 

alleycat39

skategirl128:

 Big hugs snegde! I am sending my Elster tomorrow. Horrible weather today and another interview rounded out my day today! I am so sorry fir the delay for my elf!,

 

I think I attached a pip of the cake pops. I never have any luck with this!

 

Those cake pops look delicious!!! 

alleycat39

princezjk:

princezjk- Hoping your anxiety has been in check.

It has been going okay.  I am trying to keep my anxiety and stress in check, but not always easy.  I definitely find that this board is a huge support.  Between you ladies, my support group IRL and my therapist, I think I am getting a handle on things.   

 Question of the Week: Are you going on vacation this summer? If so where?

Not planning on an vacations this summer, DH and I don't really like to travel this time of year.  We are thinking of getting away in September, but not sure where to.

 

How is everyone doing? Any updates to TTCAL efforts or just life in general? Anything awesome or vent worthy?  

 I am still TTA for 2 more cycles, but I have started using FF to track my temps.  I am not sure if I am doing it right though because my chart is a hot mess!  At least I have 2 more cycles to practice and get it right before it really counts.

 

 Hope everyone else is having a good week.  (((Hugs))) to anyone that needs them, especially everyone with an EDD in the upcoming week. 

I was thinking of you all last week, as I am sure it was a tough week. This board, as you mentioned, is really such a huge source of support. When you feel like your IRL friends just don't understand, there are handfuls of extremely wise ladies here who "just get it." Good luck with figuring out FF in these next 2 months! I'm doing the same, as I am also benched for another 2 months. I'll be thinking of you and hoping that the 2 months fly by. 

alleycat39

ball.and.chain:

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments.

I've been doing a little bit of that myself.  I'm sorry you're having such a hard time, snegde.  I was talking to my therapist today about how hard it is to accept that for most people, having a baby is NBD and yet for some of us...

I am mostly doing OK.  I started WW again last week and somehow managed to lose 5.8 lbs in the first week.  WTF!  I don't know how that happened but I will take it.  If I can lose 10 before my next FET (September-ish), I will be happy.

I had my blood drawn yesterday for karyotyping.  We should get results back in about 2 weeks, at which point we should also have the results from the pregnancy tissue.  I have an appointment with my RE on 8/2 to go over test results and talk about how to approach our next attempt.

I sent a card to my Elfster Bumpie today but will be sending more later.  I haven't received anything yet.

QOTD: We are spending a week at a lake in Maine in August.  Can't wait!

 

Great job on the WW loss of 5.8 lbs! 

I'll be thinking of you in the next few weeks leading up to the appointment with your RE. I'm hoping that the appointment gives you some clarity as you move on to your next attempt. Vacationing at a lake in Maine sounds super relaxing!!! 

porterlove525

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments. I know there are lots of women on this board who have been here longer, gone through much worse, and are not pregnant, and to be honest I am just as angry that they are still here too. I have a long list of women in my head who I hope and pray everyday that they someday get to hold there baby. It is just so hard to see new people come and go so easily. I had to change my signature today to read pgal/pal because I realized that I actually know people who are pal. I just don't understand how in 17 actively trying cycles we have only conceived one time, and that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks 5 days, so we had a sac, an empty sac. At this point I have stopped believing that my body can do this. I finally have a real set in feeling that my body is dysfunctional. And all I can do is wait until October. And here is the thing I always push these thoughts to the back of my mind, and tell myself to keep moving forward, to stay positive, that in 2 weeks you could look back and laugh because now you are pregnant. But I have been telling myself that for the past 6 months and I am not pregnant. So I might as well face that this is where I am at.nbsp;

I am so sorry and want to give you the biggest hug. TTC sucks and TTCAL sucks even more, whether you've lost one or 10, or more, or if you conceive easily or not at all....it all sucks and is not at all fair, and you have every right to hate the world.

Just know that we care about you and are here for you no matter what. Huge hugs snegde!!!!!!!

porterlove525

Quick update on me since its late and I'm beyond drained, AF arrived as I expected she would Sunday night, a bit early so I'm enjoying CD3 and a whole lot of wine. So not what any of us wish for this month, but life is all about acceptance, right?

princezjk

snegde:

princezjk:

princezjk- Hoping your anxiety has been in check.

How is everyone doing? Any updates to TTCAL efforts or just life in general? Anything awesome or vent worthy?  

 I am still TTA for 2 more cycles, but I have started using FF to track my temps.  I am not sure if I am doing it right though because my chart is a hot mess!  At least I have 2 more cycles to practice and get it right before it really counts.

 

 Hope everyone else is having a good week.  (((Hugs))) to anyone that needs them, especially everyone with an EDD in the upcoming week. 

Glad you are finding support here. Give charting some time. Are the open circles because of taking your temps at different times? Try to keep it within the hour if possible. Also after you ovulate the fluctuations may not be as severe as they seem right now. 

Thanks, Snedge!  I returned to work this week, so my wake up schedule should be pretty consistent now.  I didn't realize that was why the circles were open, oops!  I know I have a tendency to be a late ovulater, so we'll see what happens!  Thanks again for all of your support and advice! 

princezjk

alysonjill:

Extra hugs to all the ladies here, who I wish didn't still have to be here, especially this month. 

QOTW: We are spending a few weekends down at the shore this summer since DH's parents rented a house for the month of July. We just booked tickets to go to Chicago over Labor Day weekend.

TTC/TTA updates: Well, ironically I started to bleed (induced by Provera) last Wednesday, which was my EDD. The good news though with that is at least my body responded to the Provera. Now I need to wait, pray, and hope that I get AF in August (I have a history of PCOS, so we'll see how that goes). Once AF arrives, I will have to go in for imaging to make sure my uterus is actually all healed and clear...and then finally, after 9 months of waiting, we should be cleared to TTC. 

Fx AF sticks to her schedule and shows up in August!   

SandSunBliss

snegde:

I am in a bad mood. A complete judgy mcjudgy with a side of b!tch. I am playing the everybody is pregnant game and having lots of dark moments. I know there are lots of women on this board who have been here longer, gone through much worse, and are not pregnant, and to be honest I am just as angry that they are still here too. I have a long list of women in my head who I hope and pray everyday that they someday get to hold there baby. It is just so hard to see new people come and go so easily. I had to change my signature today to read pgal/pal because I realized that I actually know people who are pal. I just don't understand how in 17 actively trying cycles we have only conceived one time, and that baby stopped growing at 5 weeks 5 days, so we had a sac, an empty sac. At this point I have stopped believing that my body can do this. I finally have a real set in feeling that my body is dysfunctional. And all I can do is wait until October. And here is the thing I always push these thoughts to the back of my mind, and tell myself to keep moving forward, to stay positive, that in 2 weeks you could look back and laugh because now you are pregnant. But I have been telling myself that for the past 6 months and I am not pregnant. So I might as well face that this is where I am at.nbsp;

::hugs:: snegde . Sorry I couldn't respond yesterday. My devices have not been very compatible with te train wreck. I can now I only use mobile even though the format has gone back...

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time staying positive and hopeful. We are all cheering for you. I hope your body is just being stubborn and that you become pregnant soon. I know my word are not helpful, but just know I am thinking I you and hoping for you!!