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LundleBean
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Beta Tomorrow
LundleBean
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in Infertility
I didn't sleep very well last night. I've had a headache all day today and yesterday, so I'm having a hard time doing anything. I keep crying because I am so nervous about tomorrow.
I used to be able to imagine being pregnant, but I can't right now. I'm really afraid of this not working.
I have symptoms, but of course I can blame them on progesterone or my brain playing tricks on me.
While I have a group of people who know what we are doing, I didn't tell any of them when beta is. DH is at work right now, but he's not very good at responding when I have concerns.
I'm grateful to have you ladies to vent to. Thank you; fx, please.
Siggy Warning BFP/Loss Mentioned
Me: 30, DH 30 Started TTC 7/2009
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
10/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #2 11/12/13 ER= 9R 6M 6F 11/15/13 3dt of 2 embies (8A & 8A) 3 frosties (2 day-5, 1 day-6)
11/22/13 (7dp3dt) +hpt 11/26/13 (11dp3dt) BFP Beta=141 11/28/13 Beta 2= 372 EDD 8/5/2014
3/20/14 Fetal Demise 20 wks F/L 17 wks D&E attempted 3/21/14 & 3/22/14 Born Still 3/23/14 I love you B.T.
"Sometimes you try your hardest, but things don't work out the way you want them to." –Nani (Lilo & Stitch)“All I can say is, it's a sort of kinship, as though there is a family tree of grief. On this branch, the lost children, on this the suicided parents, here the beloved mentally ill siblings. When something terrible happens, you discover all of the sudden that you have a new set of relatives, people with whom you can speak in the shorthand of cousins.” ― Elizabeth McCracken
8/2014 FET 8/7/14 Transferred 1 5-day blast (4AA): BFN
TTCAL September Siggy Challenge: Animals in Clothing
Will add soon
**All AL/AIF Welcome**
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Re: Beta Tomorrow
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, beta #3 3/4: 268 told to stop meds and let nature take its course. requested 4th beta (3/6); Beta hell for 2 months.
Married June 2011 Dx: anovulatory due to prolactinoma (1.5cmx 1.5cm in 2006)
April 2012: MRI- questionable cyst 8mg by 12mm in pituitary ; referred to RE by Ob-gyn after amenorrhea x 4+ months, provera ineffective, low estrogen level
cycle 1: May 2012, clomid 50mg; cycle cancelled, thin lining, no response
cycle 2: June 2012, femara 5mg; cycle cancelled, no response
cycle 3: July 2012, femara 7.5mg; cycle cancelled (largest folli on Cd12 & cd 16: 11, lining 4)
Repeat MRI July 25,2012- Cyst unchanged, likely old infarction.
Aug. 8: met with RE, move to injectables if HSG and SA normal
Aug. 23: HSG all clear; DH- perfect
Switched to a new RE in early Sept. IVF here we come
Genetic testing reveals: Fragile X- Intermediate risk/grey zone.
IVF#1: ER 11/30: 14 retrieved, 10 mature, 7 fertilized. E2 prior to trigger 5200. Decision made to freeze 6 embryos and transfer later due to OHSS.
IVF#1.2/FET #1: estrogen injects start 1/18, FET delayed to try to thicken lining. lining 5.4mm. FET- 2/18- transferred one 3AA expanded blast. BFP 5dp5dt. Beta #1- 2/27 9dp5dt- 102.27 beta #2 3/1: 147
FET # 2: endometrial scratch 5/6, added estrace vaginally and ASA to delestrogen and PIO. June 10- transferred one 4AA hatched embryo, BFP 4dp6dt, Beta 1 (9dp6dt) 187, Beta 2 (11dp6dt): 412; Beta 3 (15dp6dt ): 4452. U/S #1- one beautiful embryo with a heartbeat of 133 at 7 weeks. 8 weeks: heartbeat 156. EDD 2/26/2014: born 2-3-14 induced due to Pre-E and HELLP at 36w5d.
12/1: met with RE to discuss trying for #2
Hi LundleBean - I'm so sorry you're having a tough day. I forgot if you have POAS? I think it's great that you are heading for Beta tomorrow...you'll know then. Nothing that you can do now will change whether you are pregnant or not pregnant at this point, so it seems like maybe you need to focus on what will make you feel better until tomorrow's beta. For me, it would be making a backup plan for what we will do if this transfer doesn't work. I would be asking myself, "What will my specific next step be...?" The other thing you could do, if you aren't ready to think about backup plans, is to just remain hopeful...picture the good times and remain positive as best you can.
It's very scary to think of it not working, and I'm sorry you're stuck in that mode. I hope you feel better soon and are able to move back into a hopeful place until tomorrow's beta news gets here. Stay motivated! You've got this.
| Married since 2008 | DH and I: Both 30 | Me: Endometriosis and Carrier of an X-Linked Dominant Genetic Disorder | DH: Low Morph | Planning IVF with PGD and PGS in 2013 | Freeze-All IVF #1: March 2013 ER 3/26. 29R, 12M, 11F. 4 5AA frozen blasts. Freeze-All IVF#2: May 2013 ER 5/15. 31R, 21M, 20F. 6 5AA frozen blasts. Our PGD probe was completed in late June (total of 20 weeks to develop). PGD and PGS Results came on 6/19: 3 healthy embryos (normal chromosomes and unaffected by my family's genetic disorder). FET #1: July 2013 Natural Cycle - Cancelled due to insufficient lining (only got to 7.5mm). FET #1.2: August 2013 - Medicated Cycle with Lupron & Estrogen Patches to build up lining. Single embryo transfer was 8/23. Beta #1: 240! Beta #2: 578! U/S on 9/19 at 6w4d: We saw the heart beating at 131bpm. Second U/S on 10/4 at 8w5d: We saw the heart beating at 178bpm. EDD 5/11/2014
ttc #2 since 2004 Me (35): Stage 3 Endo, DH (34): High DNA Frag
IVF/ICSI #2: April 2014: BFP!!!!!!
ET of 2 great quality embryos. + BFP on 9dp5dt. Beta #1 (10dp5dt): 257, Beta #2 (14dp5dt): 1561,
Beta #3 (21dp5d5): 8,172. Wow. It seems this is actually working. Shocked beyond belief.
1st u/s @6w5d: Baby A hb 124, Baby B hb 127 (Both measuring perfectly!)
Lost baby A. Praying that baby B stays healthy. Baby B hb 175 at 11 weeks
It's a GIRL!!!
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9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
Lundle my beta buddy, I will be thinking of you tomorrow as I head to my bloodwork appointment and I will say a prayer for you. I know how hard this is, I am right there with you and you're not alone. I really want everything to work out for you - I know how badly you want this (just as much as I do). It's so easy to lose faith but don't, there is always hope and I for one am rooting for you and I'm in your corner and you have a bunch of other ladies on this board pulling for you too.
Huge hugs and just about everything crossed for you over here!!!! Chin up!
Me 36/DH 31
Over 35 - TTC since Sept 2012
2/13 - DH's SA was normal and OBGYN did BW on me to check ovulation - all was normal. Went to RE in March 2013 at BIVF. All BW was normal, estrogen a little high. 4/13 - HSG #1 - very painful and had spasms so suggested repeat of procedure. 5/13 - HSG #2 done by RE and both tubes are blocked
9/2010 SA=Normal 9/10 HSG Dx Both tubes dilated; Rx bilateral salpingectomy & IVF; 9/2010-12/2012 Financial break
1/2013 Bilateral Salpingectomy 5/2013 Recent SA shows borderline morphology
5/2013 IVF w/ ICSI #1 6/25/13 ER=11R 9M 9F 6/28/13 3dt of 2 embies (8B & 6A-); no frosties: BFN
TTC since 9/10 consult 1/12 All testing came back fine Diagnosed with Unexplained infertility -3 medicated IUI's All BFN IVF - ER 11/14 24R, 15M, 13F ET 11/19, BETA 11/28 BFFN --Next step FET in Jan ET scheduled for 1/24. Beta #1 350 Beta #2 735. U/S Hell. miscarriage D&C at 9weeks. FET #2 ET 5/28 cancelled FET# 2.5 6/26 ET Beta 7/5 302 7/7 Beta #2 632 Everyone welcome
TTC #1 since March 2011
1 medicated TI cycle & 4 clomid IUIs = all BFNs
DS1 born 2/14
TTC #2 since December 2014
May 2015 unassisted BFP ended in m/c at 7wks
April 2016 FET #1 = BFN
June 2016 FET #2 = c/p
August 2016 FET #3 = BFP!
DS2 born 4/17
Sending you good luck and positive vibes for tomorrow!! Keep us posted!
I have my good days and bad days just like everyone else. I have more good days lately - I go to a support group on Wednesday nights as part of the Mind/Body program at the Domar Center and I can honestly say that it has done wonders for me! I'm more at peace with myself and I know that I can't control everything (especially when it comes to IF). I also do acupuncture once a week which has helped with controlling my emotions and not letting IF get the best of me. I know in my heart that I am doing everything I can to get pregnant and I just have to be ok with the outcome, whatever that may be. I truly focus on the positives throughout this journey and remain grateful for all the little things along the way...and there have been plenty.
This entire IVF journey is another chapter in my life's journal and I can't control what happens to me but I can control my actions and reactions to things. I told myself that I wanted to be courageous and brave throughout this process so that when that positive test comes back - my DH will be more than proud of the strong woman he married. I do visualize myself holding my little one and I hope you can get back to that point as well. We will get there someday Lundle! With any luck, our journey to motherhood starts tomorrow! Stay strong and let me know if you need anything at all, I'm here for you.
Me 36/DH 31
Over 35 - TTC since Sept 2012
2/13 - DH's SA was normal and OBGYN did BW on me to check ovulation - all was normal. Went to RE in March 2013 at BIVF. All BW was normal, estrogen a little high. 4/13 - HSG #1 - very painful and had spasms so suggested repeat of procedure. 5/13 - HSG #2 done by RE and both tubes are blocked
************** Siggy Warning************
Married August 2012 -- Me (40 yrs old) My husband (45 yrs. old)
RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF
IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN
Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th! Egg Retrieval 9/20/13. 19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI
3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5 Beta #2 on 10/6/13 = negative
IVF#2 - Lupron plan (set to begin on 10/28/13) (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)
Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months
CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron. (Got my calendar today! IVF#2 is a go!)
ER = 1/14/14 (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized. Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized. At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing. Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)
ET = 1/19/14 (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred! (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze. =( )
Beta #1 = 1/28/14 (2 weeks after ER) BFP! 209 (9dp5dt) EDD 10/7/14
Beta #2 - 1/30/14 (11 dp5dt) 302
Beta #3 - 2/3/14 (15 dp5dt) 1222
Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS! Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm
Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.
PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
Removed ovarian cysts in Mar 2010 & removed left ovary in May 2010
TTC since Oct 2011
Sep 2012 IUI #1 Natural cycle BFN
Sep 2012 IUI #2 Natural cycle BFN
Oct 2012 IUI #3 Natural cycle BFN
Nov 2012 removed uterine polyp
Feb 2013 IVF #1 ER 2/8: 13R,6M,6F, 3dt of 1 6-cell & 1 7-cell embie, beta hell resulted in blighted ovum.
June 2013 IVF #2 cancelled due to lining too thick
July 2013 IVF #2.1 ER 7/9, 9R,4M,2F, 3dt of 2 8-cell embies, BFN
DX: Unexplained
BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121. US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE. EDD 12/28
Me: 32 H: 31
IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
ET delayed due to OHSS
FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN
Good luck!!!
Thoughts and prayers for a some peace!