A letter to my sweet twin b

Slatelady19 · June 2013

Sweet twin B
On nov 2012, we started the journey of ivf, in dec we had our first try fail, I never felt pain like that, in Jan we tried again after thousands of shots and surgeries we got the best news ever, march 22 we found out we were pregnant on April 9 i started bleeding and thought i was miscarrying we heard amazing news we were expecting two babies instead of one, we talk to you everyday and daddy gave you a kiss everynight before work, every appt we saw you grow more and more, on may 17 we went in for nts we saw you bounce on your head and measure the fluid behind your neck to make sure you were ok, you were so big and so full of life, every appt after that we got to hear your heartbeat, there was nothing in this world that could describe that sweet sound, I dreamed of the day when you could talk and call me mommy, it was a sweet voice, i dreamed you and your twin would have the most amazing bond, on June 6 I went in for a normal check up and heard the worst news ever, your heart had stopped 3 weeks early, it the worst pain I have ever felt, I felt like it was a awful dream, the dr came in and confirmed that it was true and the dream became so real, it was like a knife to the heart, my sweet twin b.
I want you to know how loved you are from the minute we saw you, you already had your own personality, very similar to daddy, you hated your pic taken and when we saw you you were always bouncing on your head. We joked that you were just like daddy and we would have our hands full with you, I'm sorry my body failed you and that I couldn't give you what you needed, Im sorry ill never get to hear you say mommy, always know that you will be extremely loved and never forgotten, please watch over your other sibling give them the strength to grow strong, I know with you by their side they will always have angel. Even though I never got to hold you, I will always hold you in my heart, I hope you never suffered and now your at rest and your great grandpa is watching over you in heaven, you will always be my baby and everyday I will dream of seeing you, my sweet twin b you will never know how much I love you