20 months ago today

Heatherhah

We said good bye to our sweet Sydney. Time seems to go by so fast but also so slow. I wonder what she would look like if her hair would be blonde like her big sister if she would have blue eyes or brown. All things I will never know and that just sucks.

How have I survived the last 20 months I honestly don't know. I think I just try to not dwell on the what ifs since they can't be changed. I function every day and every day she is on my mind and in my heart. My DH and DS don't mention her that often but I know they think of her as much as I do. 

Yesterday while out back cooking dinner on the grill and hanging around our pool DH was in the pool with DD1 and dipping our rainbows feet in the pool a black and sapphire blue butterfly flew around us and DH said there she is there is our Sydney. It fit so well since that is her birth stone sapphire. It was like she was there with us only for that brief sweet moment. I miss her so much !!

Heather 

Williamandshawnna

Heather,

It is so nice when we see signs of our little ones.

HUGS

Shawnna

Bayberry12

Hugs to you Heather.  

Time does go by so fast and so slow all at once.  Sydney is always with you, and those brief moments when you really feel her are so special.   

OSUWifey09

Lots of hugs Heather. I don't have anything better to say than what pp said, so I'll let their words speak for me. Thinking of you and sweet Sydney today.

tuscanbride2007

((HUGS)) Heather. Thinking of you today.

meli1025

Big ((HUGS)) Heather.  Thinking of you today.

shandorfml2

big big hugs! It's helpful to see people further out from their loss, still surviving.

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Huge hugs sweetie.  When I think about it, I can't believe how far we've come either or how we got here.  Our angels are always around us.