My neighbor announced she is pregnant. Turns out she is just about as far along as I would've been with my 1st pregnancy, I just lost my second not even a week ago. I pretty much crashed. I just don't know how I'm gonna handle watching her belly grow.
I'm so tired of people telling me it just wasn't the right time and to not worry because I will have my babies some day. The truth is nobody knows and yes I want to stay positive but there's a part of me that's a realist too. After the 1st I was devastated but had hope it was just a fluke, but now it's hard not to worry and think the worst.
I know it's childish but . . . It's just not fair.