Hormonal vent...

lolob45

I know this all probably sounds stupid but I just need to vent... my hubby doesn't get it and i'm just feel so blah right now...

My friend cut and colored my hair last night and because there was so much breakage and my hair has been so weak since I got KU she warned me that she needed to cut a few inches off ... basically it looked like I had a hole in the back of my head where the most breakage was. My hair was a few inches from my tailbone. I let her cut it, we washed it and I just let it air dry and didn't think much of it last night. This AM I woke up late feeling sick ... all I wanted to do was crawl back into bed but I need to be at work today. I started to style my hair and quickly realized it's now just at my shoulders, maybe a half an inch longer. I completely lost it. I had been growing my hair out since my wedding and loved the length ... it is really one of the only things that has made me feel sexy and "myself" since becoming pregnant. My husband tried to calm me down but I was just so upset - I feel like I have no control over anything and with my body getting bigger and horrible acne my hair was a constant...

I started to get dressed and the weather here has completely changed... i've bought and have been wearing tons of dresses as it's been in the 80s and now it's low 70s with rain - I have no maternity jeans. I squeezed into pre-maternity jeans and am just so uncomfortable and hate the way I look. Lesson learned - i'm going shopping again this weekend and buying at least one pair.

Now i'm at work and I'm realizing how disconnected I feel ... I have so much to do as we're hiring an assistant for me who will do what I do while i'm on m/l. I am so overwhelmed between work and my personal commitments and trying to upkeep our home while being so exhausted ... I just seriously want to crawl into a hole for a day and do nothing but I can't take any time off until the end of May...  

This is my first pregnancy so i'm sure feeling so out of control of my body and everything around me is normal ... I've lost so much muscle tone since I was on pelvic rest my 1st tri and it's just weird. I know it's beautiful and I know all of these changes mean our baby is growing, I am just having a difficult time going through this transition....  

 

BlessedinMN

I was just saying this to my friend yesterday. It is my first as well, and it truly is a strange feeling losing control over your body. Not only are you experiencing awful symptoms but your body just isn't what it was. It has been hard for me as well beca

shelfrgg25

Hang in there sweetie...as a STM, I can tell you that the second time around is not any better....I (in a hormonal fit of rage)  chopped my hair off a few weeks ago and have been weepy  over that fact since.  You will make it through and on

wildbutterfli2001

I know how you feel.  I feel like I have zero control over what my body is going thru.  First pregnancy here too, so it's all very new and weird lol.  Feeling my stomach stretch is just bizzare and the constant gas has got to make my husban