long-timer check in!

owlprof

Hello to any long-timers still out there!  Our ranks are definitely thinning, for both both happy and sad reasons!  Let's hear what's going on!!

Best wishes to irishgirl and 10-4 as they wait out the rest of their 2ww, and good luck to happywife & Becky who are waiting on their DE cycles! 

To llama and McIrish (if you are out there)...you are missed, and I hope that you are making your way on a peaceful path.

I know there are others out there in flux (like you, brooklynesque), and I hope you are closer to figuring everything out.

owlprof

Not much new to report here.  On the baby front, I'm not sure that we have a future in treatments due to being OOP.  So, no immediate or even short term plans.

Work has been pretty stressful.  I am a university professor and am currently on a part time contract.  We heard a few weeks ago that our department head is considering phasing out our programl  I left an amazing tenure track job last May to come to Austin and am now a bit freaked out that I am going to end up without good news on the baby or job front.  Ugh.

I'm trying to get motivated to get the house (that we moved into in October) in order.  I still have things in boxes and nothing on the walls.  We talked about using our tax refund for either a new couch or a dishwasher, but now I am leaning towards going to the awesome spa about 45 minutes from out house for a weekend away for me and DH.

I probably won't join the fb group -- I don't do much on fb and am pretty cautious b/c of my job, but I hope that the ladies who have gone over there are finding a nice community.  I'm also scaling back on thebump -- I've noticed that most of the long-timers are either on to IFV or 3rd party repro, and while I'm not really a candidate for those boards, I do tend to keep an eye on folks over there.

I hope that everyone is doing well and can't wait to hear your updates!

10-4LilBuddy

Hello ladies.  I'm sorry for being such a PW the last couple weeks.  There just seemed to be new news every day for a while. 

Right now, I'm 5dp5dt with two embies on board and three frosties napping.  My trigger shot was on 2/17, so 12 days ago.  I took a digital HPT on Monday to test out my trigger.  I got a negative, so I think I can safely say that it was and is out of my system - although it was a digital and I didn't dismantle it to check the stick. 

My beta is on Monday.  I am trying to hold out until Sunday to test at home.  My husband is being a major POAS pusher.  He went to Target yesterday and came back with five pregnancy tests - both digital and evap. 

I gave up Facebook for Lent as I found myself checking on it far too much.  I am not sure if I'll be joining our FB group after Easter.  I kind of like anonymity of expressing my feelings and progress, but I'm also wary of posting them on a public forum such as this. 

I hope everyone has a great weekend.  DH and I have a nice relaxing weekend planned.  We may even get to see a movie.  Good luck to everyone and looking forward to hearing how you are doing.

HeatherIcon

I am actually at my RE right now for my lucky seven transfer!! Two frosties just popped in!!

brooklynesque

Hi ladies! Sorry I haven't been posting here as much. I've posted a bit on IFV but have stayed off most of the other boards because I needed a break after this last IVF failure. But I'm feeling a bit better now; going to try some natural cycle IVF and at the same time work on lining up a donor for summer. I'm also taking DHEA for the first time, so I'll see if that has any effect.

Owl: I hope things turn out okay on the job front and that you figure out a way to do more treatments if that's what you want to do.

104 and Heather: Lots of luck to you both in your current cycles!! Keep us posted.

I'm not joining the FB group yet. Mostly because I don't trust FB ... I keep thinking about the time they accidentally revealed a lot of personal messages by users.

BeckyP005

Hi Owl!! So sorry about this stressful time at work. I hope everything works out with your job. Hugs on the baby front. Oh and I vote fpr the "spa"!!

Heather GL!! 10-4 I'm sure Monday can't come fast enough for you and YH!!

Brooklyn I'm glad your feeling a bit better. Big hugs. Wishing you lots of luck on your next cycle with natural ivf and I hope this new plan gets your baby!

McIrish your in my thoughts and Llama I hope your doing ok.

Nothing new to report except 4 months down. Hopefully I get a call soon to get off this waiting list because all this wait time is making me rethinking everything! My parents just bought my ticket (for my 45th bday) to go to Belgrade with them in June so I'm pretty psyched about that! MH and I also booked with his sister and brother a week in the Outer Banks in August. Too bad I wasn't going to Nantucket for work...I would of been the traveling woman this summer. I'm just hoping all of this doesn't mess up cycling plans. We shall see.

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend

10-4LilBuddy

Owl - Job stress on top of everything else?  That's terrible.  Fingers crossed for you.  Don't worry too much about the house.  We moved in a year ago and have been slowly fixing up each room.  It drives my hubby crazy that we haven't put much on the walls or painted.  It's a new house and came painted a dark beige which is fine by me.  I just don't care about wall color and he is really bad at painting (despite what he may think).

Heather - you are bumping in the recovery room? 

Brooklyn - I'm so glad you are feeling better.  I was reading your updates and hoping your break would help you.

Becky - Wow!  That's a lot of travel. Sounds fun! 

HeatherIcon

Thanks girls!!!
Yep! I was so water logged I needed my phone to keep me occupied. So I posted my update from the transfer suite.
I am now resting comfortably!

DawnHope

Owl: Thanks for keeping the connections going.  And to all the other ladies that you mentioned, you all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, wherever you are on your journey.

As for me, it's been a long, frustrating haul.  My last IVF resulted in an ectopic, so I had to take methotrexate.  As of the other day, my HCG was still @ 50, so I am just anxious for it to get down to 0 so I can just move on.  My m/c in August literally lingered on for 6 months. All these delays when you're 41.5 are very unnerving.

On Monday, my DH and I are visiting our RE to discuss what happened with our last IVF, and next steps. Frankly, I felt like it was a disaster.  I had 19 follies and woke up from retrieval with only 6 eggs and then only 3 made it.  And then of course, the cherry on top of an ectopic.  Ugh.

I also have an appt in 2 weeks with a new RE for a 2nd opinion.  I'm not naive - I know just as my RE has stated OVER AND OVER that I'm old and I might just have crappy old eggs, but my history leads me to believe that my autoimmune issues may be to blame.  I've been doing a lot of reading over the last few weeks about Dr. Beer's testing (he's passed away, but he was a pioneer in reproductive immunology - google it if you haven't read about it: it's pretty interesting stuff) and I really want to push to examine some of these things he's talked about.

I'm feeling really kind of exhausted and hopeless, which is hard because I feel like I'm dragging my husband down.  He still remains steadfast in his hope.  

Praying for a miracle at this point.

Oh, and about the FB thing - I'm with the OP - it freaks me out too much that they'd reveal personal info...so not for me. 

happywifemomofone

Hi Ladies-sorry I missed last month's check in, I was in Florida until the 3rd and figured it was too late to post.

McIrish-If you are lurking, I miss seeing you around and am very sad that your story did not have the ending that we were all hoping for.

Owl-spa weekend sounds like a great way to spend tax refund.  Sorry that you are having job stress and hope that your department doesn't have any cuts.

Heather-Hope that your LO's are snuggling in for the long haul!

Brooklynesque-GL with your natural IVF-hope that it's your ticket to success.  I considered mini/micro IVF, but ultimately insurance decided it for me when they consider it the same as a regular IVF cycle.  In my state-insurance has to pay for IVF, up to 4 cycles.  My DE cycle is my forth and final.   Glad to see you posting on IFV, that's a great group of ladies!!

Becky-Hope that you get the call soon about your DE cycle so that you will be able to plan for the timing.  Belgrade sounds like a fabulous trip!  Stop second guessing your decision to try DE, you'll forever regret it if you don't make the effort.

Dawn-I am also praying that you get your miracle!!  It sucks when you get a + Beta and things don't turn out right-It's just not fair!!!

Our DE cycle is set to begin this month with ER scheduled between 4/2-4/4.  I got my meds in the mail yesterday (much smaller box than previous IVFs which I am trilled about)  We have planned a trip for May with our tax refund some other money that we have saved up.  We are going to go to Sandala in Ocho Rios, Jamaica. Neither my husband or I have ever been to an all inclusive resort. We don't even have passports, so I have some things to keep me busy during all the waiting that this month brings.   We hope to be pregnant by this trip, but if not, hopefully it will give us the rest and wherewithal to come back and move forward with another FET. I turn 44 in April, not liking my age and staring to feel too old to want to keep trying. We have one donor and whatever embryos become frosties, then we will be officially and finally done. 

PPL2011

Hi everyone...I've been a little absent this week. As you may know, I didn't make it to transfer on my last IVF. I had six embryos goto PGS testing and they all came back abnormal. I've been pretty devastated, but I will be moving on the IVF #2 again with PGS. I will be starting the EPP protocol starting in about 2 weeks and hope to get lots of follicles!

Good luck everyone!