So, I know there are a few ladies on this board who,have first hand experience with anxiety issues/disorders. Talk to me, ladies, cause I think I might need help. I'm really unsure about it. I'm not sure that what I have could be classified as ppa. (I'm not asking anyone to diagnose me, ftr) I would just like to have an open discussion about what anxiety looks like and what I could/should possibly do.
I should classify all of this by saying that my dh has an anxiety disorder, and takes meds for it. That is one of the flags that set me off-I am behaving in a manner that reminds me of mh off meds. Some things that have made me think I might have a problem:
-I have been a royal b*tch to my husband. I am surprised he is still married to me. He can never do anything right, I feel like I can't stand him (which is not true), and every little thing he does gets on my nerves, even though he is wonderful.
-I haven't felt like myself since before I had Paul. The other day dh and I were installing a faucet together and we started being goofy, and I realized I hadn't laughed like that in a really long time. Like, going on a year long time. I am normally a cheery, fun person, and I'm not anymore.
- I have moments of sheer rage. They are not frequent, and they are fleeting, and thankfully, I have not hurt a living creature but I have punched walls, kicked things, yelled, etc. which is not me. At all.
-little things can completely cripple me. I couldn't get Paul to hold still for a diaper change last week, and I ended up sobbing on the floor while he crawled around half naked.