Okay so I really don't think I have postpartum depression but my SO is concerned that I do so I'm just wondering what your opinion is. Being 100% honest I will say that:
1. I blame myself completely for what happened-and I know that is just part of grief. 2. I have to force myself to function. If I don't make myself do something-cook, clean, shower, eat...I will literally just sit/lay around all day. I think that's the only thing I have a hard time shrugging off. If SO wasn't here I wouldn't get up in the morning and even with him here I lay there for at least 30 minutes telling myself to get up every morning.
3) I don't answer my phone or go out in public at all other than when I go grocery shopping 30 minutes away from home where I rarely see anyone I know.
4) I have stopped talking about my son to the people I love. I talk to my SO a little about him but most of it I keep inside because a. I don't want to be judged and b, I don't want to upset anyone.
Does this sound like PPD or just grief? I really think it's just grieving but I've known women who denied needing help when they did so I'm just looking for some advice from people who get it. I have my next follow up appt next Thursday.