Hello everyone,
I've really taken some comfort from reading the messages here the last few days. I had my last period Dec 19th, then spotting (from implantation?) on jan 9th, then positive HPT on jan 19th, 20th, 21st. Tues the 22nd had "quick check" appt at my doc, their test was negative, sent for blood work. Next day was told levels were early/low, ordered Thursday blood draw. Friday was told numbers had more than doubled and we were on our way, made first two appointments, congratulations, etc. It was our second pregnancy (first was our son, turned 2 in December), told our parents on Sunday. Monday started spotting and bloodwork ordered for that afternoon, Tuesday morning told numbers had dropped sharly from Thursday and it was a miscarriage. Every day in the last 2 weeks has been either waiting for news, or highs and lows. I'm left wondering if I was ever "really" pregnant at all, or if it was a pregnancy that just didn't take. I would be 6 weeks today, so it was very early....never had ultrasound, heard heartbeat...makes me very confused about what to feel...was it a loss, or something I never really had in the first place?
Did anyone else have these feelings with an early miscarriage? Forgive me if this is rambling or too much information. Just finding myself a bit overwhelmed from this whirlwind. Thanks to all and sorry for all your losses.
Re: Intro...was it real?
I am definitely having similar thoughts as you. I'm starting to wonder if the test on Sunday that gave me my BFP was faulty. It was a very reliable brand, but who knows. I am wondering if I am mourning something that never even was. It just sucks no matter what.
Sorry you have been through such highs and lows, and sorry for your loss.
~Trying for our rainbow baby~
Me: 33 Him: 34
Not preventing since 1/1/2012
BFP #1 1/21/12 mmc @ 9wks d&c 3/5/12
TTA until 9/1/12
2 AO/irregular cycles Oct/Nov with abnormal TSH b/w
Started TTC again 12/1/12
BFP #2 12/31/2012 c/p 1/5/13