I have everything I have ever wanted. I have an amazing husband, a gorgeous daughter who is everything I ever wanted and more. And yet, at 6 months, I feel like we are still in survival mode. I feel like I am barely making it. I enjoy every minute I spend with E. But I still cry most nights in the shower because I'm just so tired, and I constantly worry that I'm not doing it right. I am stressed all the time. As much as I want another LO (or several more!) and my doctor suggested sooner is better than later, the thought of another one right now terrifies the crap out of me. Even the littlest things still seem so hard. Like trying to get out of the house to get a pedicure is a monumental task. There's no way I could handle pregnancy and another LO right now. So what gives? Should it be easier by now? Am I just terrible at this? Am I not cut out to have more than one? Or is this normal?
Sorry to be so whiny on a hump day morning. But MH and I had a very serious talk last night, and now I'm doubting myself. I thought I was doing okay, but he's not sure if my feelings are normal are not. How do you know? What is normal?