Moving forward?

Kaselleck

So while I'm taking a cycle off, I'm still waiting for ugly AF to show up. The longer I'm waiting, the worse I feel. I just think this is never going to happen. With thin uterine lining and fluid recurring in my uterus, I'm just so pessimistic that this can ever happen. Sorry I'm so negative when I post, but I need to vent or I'll lose my marbles. I just don't know how to find the acceptance I need to move forward. Maybe I should just throw in the towel?

74dragonfly

What does your Dr say? If they think there are you can do, DH is willing and you can afford I'd try. For me I have been trying two years, two losses, three unsuccessful IUI. I will do one round IVF. If that doesn't work I will likely stop. But I need to know I tried or else I will always wonder.

Kaselleck

I've cancelled 3 FET because of poor lining/fluid issues. My RE did a bunch of tests and has aspirated the fluid multiple times. Turns out it's from my csection incision- leaking fluid within the incision itself  or the glands around it because I had hysteroscopy surgery in October and he cleared my uterus of all abnormal and scar tissue, so my uterus is fine otherwise?? My lining won't get above a 6.5, and even after pumping my body full of estrogen and stimming my ovaries to help, it even shrunk mid cycle last time. I'm taking a month off any meds (including birth control) to give my body a break. I'm going to try a really weird protocol in March/April to try a transfer, It's acupuncture, viagra, estrace, estrogen IM shots, Vitamin e, trental (sp?), and PIO. It's a hail Mary though. My doc said he has seen this last resort work for women's lining, but he's also seen it not make much difference. He said if my lining doesn't improve, I can transfer anyway becasue he said if this porotcol does nothing, I just need to accept my damaged uterus for what it is.I know that my lining issues can be related to the fluid, from c-section damage, and/or poor blood flow due to the damaging my blood vessels from 2 c-sections. With all that can be and is wrong with my uterus, I just don't see how my uterus can every be very welcoming. to an embryo, and it's killing me. I am going to a counselor this weekend because I just can'get it out of my head. I am thinking about my uterus constantly, and I know how ridiculous that sounds!