wtf is wrong with me????!!

mina_mina1

I am a momma to a beautiful 15month old, I am crazy about her, when I'm not around her I think about her all the time, when I'm with her I am always trying to make our home comfortable for her and my hubby, I am a working mom, because frankly 1 I love working 2I can't stand being at home and only doing mommy things I truly truly am not trying to offend anyone, I just need to vent. I feel like the worlds worst bitchiest terrible selfish mother that I DON'T like staying at home for an extended period of time. When we have spring break off together we are out and about taking care of stuff and doing things because I hate just being at home all day, especially days at a time, I feel like such a monster feeling that way but I do. My daughter got the flu last night, luckily it isn't that bad bc she's had the shot so she's actually quite cheerful except her appetite is low but mostly dealing with it pretty well but the *** mother that I am is focusing on the fact that now I am confined to my home for a week straight hubby is out of town, all my backups are busy all week so I know I won't get one single break and of course not leave our place at all so she can stay home and get better. Please please tell me someone feels a fraction of how I feel.......am I the only monster mommy??

RoxRing

No.  I would probably feel the same way.  I work also, and figure I would not do good as a SAHM.  I love spending time with my child, but I ALWAYS have to have plans.  I'm not good just being at home all day with him.  I think this may change as he gets older and we can do more "projects".

My suggestion for you now that you know you will be stuck at home is just to make plans for each day with the two of you...cooking, projects, cleaning (my son thinks cleaning is play)...map out your day.  It will probably make you feel better to have a plan, if you're anything like me.  Also, get out in the evenings if you can so that you do know you're able to get out of the house and have some time away.

Good luck, and don't worry, you're not the only one that feels that way...not everyone does, but we all have different personalities, and I understand where you are coming from.

Elsa1984

Bundle LO up and go for a walk. It will be good for both of you guys and get you out of the house for a bit without exposing illness to others.

Scramblersmom

You are not a horrible Mom at all. I am one of those people that can't stand to be stuck in the house for longer than 24 hrs. I was like this even before DS came along. When I am at home I am always looking at what needs to be done and running around trying to get all of those chores done. I have decided that we need to spend time outside of the home and do fun things with DS when we are out even if it is just going to the mall for lunch.

As PP said, maybe you can just bundle up your LO and go for some walks today. If she is feeling better tomorrow that maybe you can go out and do some shopping, have some lunch, and walk around somewhere (anywhere) just to get out.

Ms.Jade

Thanks for being brave enough to write this down. I have similar feelings. I work from home Mondays and Fridays so I have 4 straight days with E every week. The 3 days I go into the office I miss her terribly. But I wouldn't trade them. I get so crazy being home day in and day out. I try to plan at least one outing everyday too. If something were to happen and one of us had to stay home DH would be the one and he and E would flourish. Not like me. With me we'd sink. 

I hear you and I can only suggest that you do little walks, maybe visit the pet store (I did this with E a few weeks ago and she LOVED watching the mice run around), to pick out a few new books at the library or to feed the ducks in the park (easily done while bundled into a stroller).

Best of luck to you!

 

 

mina_mina1

Thank your for your comments ladies, very helpful both practically and emotionally........

TwiMom

I am a SAHM but I often feel the some of the same things that you are experiencing.  It's hard being stuck in the house with no plans and nobody to help you or keep you company!  I try to keep busy and get my DD into plenty of activities/play dates for her and for me too!  Being stuck in the house is hard...I wish my LO thought cleaning was playing...if yours will let you get away with that go for it!  Definitely take a walk if you can.  If she feels well enough you could even walk around a mall if it's not nice enough outside.  

laabeja

Same feelings here. I don't know how DH does it as a SAHD. I actually went back to work early from maternity leave because I needed to get out. I had (maybe have?) some guilty feelings over it, but each of us is different. What got me was that I'd thought I'd feel the opposite way.