There's a couple that we know through friends of ours. We're not super close but we see them a few times a year and they're super nice people. I'm friends with both of them on FB. The wife has a blog that she's posted on FB over the last few months and I've been reading it. In it, she's mentioned briefly that her youngest son has a few health problems. Today she decided to share their story - about how their youngest son almost became an angel when he was 3 weeks old. He had RSV. That's what Corbin had. Her child lived though. I felt compelled to read it and connected with so many of her feelings as I did. At the same time I'm just so angry. Why did her child make it and not mine? I feel horrible for even thinking it. I'm so scared of who I have become. I swear I'm not that horrible of a person but I find myself having horrible thoughts like this all the time.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11.
Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be