Thought this would be easier

cs1225

This week was what would have been the birthdays of the babies from my m/c.  I should have had a baby boy that turned 2 and another (gender unknown) that turned 1 this week.  Its really strange to think about that.  This year was definitely easier than the last two years now that I have baby Paige, but its still so hard to think about and for these anniversaries to come around.  What makes it so hard, I think, is that I saw them both on an u/s.  The first m/c was at 13 wks and it was so hard because it looked like a little baby, an image that I don't think I will ever get out of my head.

I know that having those two m/c gave me Paige as I would have been pregnant with the 2nd baby when I got pregnant with Paige.  I can't imagine my life without her, so I guess everything does happen for a reason.

So glad this week is now over.

jmccall79

Oh, I'm so sorry! I can't even imagine!!!!! I'm so glad that you made it through this week...and so glad that sweet Paige is here, with your family.

kristin172429

Hugs to you!!  I can't imagine the loss and the anniversaries.  So sorry you had to go through that and so happy you have Paige now!  

MrsLindinger0905

::hugs::

SY Smiles

I'm so sorry. October 7 was the one year anniversary of my baby girl's due date. I lost her between 13-14 weeks. I thought I was doing alright, but DH took Nolan and I on a stay-cation about an hour from our house for the night just to get away. We went to pick up some snacks from the grocery store and they had a bunch of hot pink Happy Birthday balloons blown up to buy. I lost it right in the middle of the store. I'm talking sobs.

I know what you mean. It is hard because I know that if I hadn't lost Eden, I wouldn't have Nolan. He was supposed to be in my family. It doesn't make me any less sad to think of how things could have been with her though...especially now that I know what awesome kids I make.

Big hugs to you. You are not alone.

MeganSony

I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Im glad you have Paige today.

Jen0204

I'm so sorry for your losses.

runrinserepeat

I'm so sorry, I can't imagine how difficult that must be. Give Paige an extra snuggle tonight ((hugs))

SrhA1984

I am sorry for your losses and this rough week...give Paige a couple.of extra snuggles today! My loss anniversary was on Halloween, it was definitely bitter sweet.

kittyh8r

I am so sorry! If I could hug you, I would.