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new way to torture myself

So, a friend who had a m/c wanted to borrow my fetal doppler.  This leads me to having to get the doppler from a semi-estranged friend....ugh...she was being semi-sweet and gave me all her maternity clothes. (and quite a bit of mine that she was supposed to have already given me back--rambling over).

Anyway, I was glancing at them and there is quite a bit that I know wont fit me and really way more dressy items than I would even wear as she worked and I am a stay at home mom.

So, I just tortured myself by trying on maternity clothes and I was annoyed that this friend could be "done having kids" and I am here hoping to wear her hand-me-down ugly maternity clothes (b/c maternity clothes ARE ugly). 

TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home
Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16

Re: new way to torture myself

  • hugs to you.  i think today is just a crappy day all across the board :) it is for me too, at least! 
    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
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    hugs to you.  i think today is just a crappy day all across the board :) it is for me too, at least! 

    tell me why your day has been crappy, lets wallow together! 

    TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
    BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
    3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
    TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
    BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
    Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
    Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
    Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
    Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
    Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
    Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
    Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home
    Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16
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    tell me why your day has been crappy, lets wallow together! 

     Just the finding out last night that my friend is preggo with #2 - making me grouchy today!  :(  Then the feeling like a terrible person for feeling upset about it.  Add onto that the knowledge that if this cycle doesn't work i am on a forced break until the new year, my 2.5 yo son in a major not listening phase, plus a new puppy whose goal in life right now it to chew my or DS' feet off every time we try to walk anywhere, and whew!  maybe i should go try on my old maternity clothes too just to complete the day, lol!  :)   

    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
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    Hugs to you both--It's been a crappy day-- found out that a friend ( was a friend, not really anymore, but thats a story in and of itself) who started trying for her first way after I started trying for my second is pregnant again.  Her first is 9 months.. She got pregnant when he was 6 months by accident-- she didn't know she could get pregnant breast feeding-- why can't I have that kind of accident?
    DS#1 born 9/23/06 
    Twins DS#2 and 3 born at 31 weeks, 3 days due to a short cervix on 8/2/13.
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    Hugs to you both--It's been a crappy day-- found out that a friend ( was a friend, not really anymore, but thats a story in and of itself) who started trying for her first way after I started trying for my second is pregnant again.  Her first is 9 months.. She got pregnant when he was 6 months by accident-- she didn't know she could get pregnant breast feeding-- why can't I have that kind of accident?

    gag!  that is total UGH!  I swear we need to drink their water.....or better yet "just relax" 

    TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
    BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
    3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
    TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
    BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
    Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
    Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
    Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
    Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
    Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
    Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
    Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home
    Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16
  • I'm sorry it is a bad day. Hugs to you.




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  • Hugs to you guys!

    Can I add my whine here? My boss's wife is pregnant with their 4th now, but their 3rd since I have had DS. That makes 3 people now at work that are pg. I'm so happy for them all. But, at the same time it just makes me sad.

    TTC#2 since December 2010. HSG and bloodwork all good. SA results not so good. Unmedicated IUI#1 6/19/2012 - BFN
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    Hugs to you guys!
    Can I add my whine here? My boss's wife is pregnant with their 4th now, but their 3rd since I have had DS. That makes 3 people now at work that are pg. I'm so happy for them all. But, at the same time it just makes me sad.


    All whines accepted here! Lol. And If I can add one more whine myself just found out my sisters friend is preggo again after just having a baby in January! Wth! Aaaaggghhhh! I mean, it's almost funny.
    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • image ammare:
    Hugs to you guys!
    Can I add my whine here? My boss's wife is pregnant with their 4th now, but their 3rd since I have had DS. That makes 3 people now at work that are pg. I'm so happy for them all. But, at the same time it just makes me sad.


    All whines accepted here! Lol. And If I can add one more whine myself just found out my sisters friend is preggo again after just having a baby in January! Wth! Aaaaggghhhh! I mean, it's almost funny.
    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • image ceebeetee:
    image ammare:
    Hugs to you guys! Can I add my whine here? My boss's wife is pregnant with their 4th now, but their 3rd since I have had DS. That makes 3 people now at work that are pg. I'm so happy for them all. But, at the same time it just makes me sad.
    All whines accepted here! Lol. And If I can add one more whine myself just found out my sisters friend is preggo again after just having a baby in January! Wth! Aaaaggghhhh! I mean, it's almost funny.

    Amen! All whines are accepted here!!!  (I might be having an actual glass of wine!  Hey I am on BCPs so bring it on!!) 

    TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
    BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
    3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
    TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
    BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
    Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
    Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
    Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
    Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
    Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
    Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
    Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home
    Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16
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