Need to get this off my chest - T&P Please!

amalilsweetchic · October 2012

I posted a week ago that when I went to the doctor at 7 weeks, I was only measuring 5 weeks, but the doctor didn't seem concerned. I went in again yesterday at 8 weeks, and was still only only measuring 5 weeks. My heart sank.

The doctor told me this would not be a successful pregnancy and then listed off my options to me. He did a blood draw to check my HCG level and to see if my blood type warranted concern for RH-. Needless to say, yesterday was the day that I dreaded and I began the process of mourning my loss.

However, this morning, the nurse called me and told me my betas at 42DPO were 6,233. I know it's low, but that is growth from my draw at 22DPO where it was 912. She told me my chances of keeping the baby were 50/50 at this point and to stay on the Progesterone and she would see me back in a week.

I'm so torn right now. A part of me wants to hold out and have faith, and the other part just feels like I have to "accept" it. I'm not really sure what the point of this post is other than to just type out everything. It's hard when you don't have anyone else around you who can truly understand. Has anyone experienced slow growth to this extent and made it out on the other side? I know there may not be many positive stories to tell, but if you can spare a prayer right now, baby and I could certainly use it. Thanks!

tetiananina · October 2012

I don't have a success story for you but I am sending you lots of T&P's and hoping things work out for the best.

sammer818 · October 2012

Being in that "inbetween" place and not knowing what is going to happen is so hard and very scary. I'm so sorry you find yourself there. While I have no succuess stories to share, I do hope things come out positively for you. You are in my t&p.

pnutg · October 2012

Prayers for you and your baby!

katigox · October 2012

I really have no advice, or personal relation to this scenario, but I just wanted to offer some T&P's and hope things look good in a week ~

HoolahZinger · October 2012

I'm really sorry you have to be in this limbo. I am always one to hold out hope to the very end but I know how hard it is. Huge hugs to you.

rkrichey · October 2012

(((HUGS))) I hate being in limbo like that. It's awful. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I agree with PP. Don't give up hope until you have to. I always tell myself that being pesimistic or "giving up hope" won't make the hurt any less if something does happen so try and stay positive. Easier said than done, I know. Keep us updated

ShellBear+ · October 2012

I'm sorry to say but this news doesn't sound good and I'm surprised that a nurse would say 50/50 and get your hopes up. The ultrasound is the best indicator of how this pregnancy is going and you didn't have any growth in a week. Betas will still rise with a miscarriage and may get quite high. Your body can take a long time to even recognize that this is a miscarriage and it holds on to the pregnancy. I'm sorry I know how difficult losses are and how you look for even the slightest bit of hope. I really hope things turn out well for you in the future.

orangegoggles · October 2012

ShellBear+:

I'm sorry to say but this news doesn't sound good and I'm surprised that a nurse would say 50/50 and get your hopes up. The ultrasound is the best indicator of how this pregnancy is going and you didn't have any growth in a week. Betas will still rise with a miscarriage and may get quite high. Your body can take a long time to even recognize that this is a miscarriage and it holds on to the pregnancy. I'm sorry I know how difficult losses are and how you look for even the slightest bit of hope. I really hope things turn out well for you in the future.

I am sorry but I also have to agree. I truly hope that you have a miracle and the u/s machine is just having difficulty seeing things progress (sometimes happens with tilted uterus or outdate u/s machine). I can't imagine all that you are going through, (((Hugs)))

April! · October 2012

I'm so sorry you're going through this. This limbo time is the worst. I don't have any advice or a good story to share, but I can send you love, hugs, and prayers. You'll be in my thoughts.