Tomorrow is our "D Day" xp PGAL. Pregnancy mentioned

samakasrc · September 2012

I know I don't post here often anymore, I haven't been in a good place to post over here. But I do lurk and I do send t&ps to all the new members and existing members who could use them.

Tomorrow morning we go in for our ultrasound to determine if these babies have kidneys or if either of them will be born with the same condition our son had. I imagine this day is much like when other ladies reach the anniversary dates of their losses...

I terrified. I've been an emotional crying mess this entire week. But my focus to stay strong has changed. I'm trying to focus on this thought: If everything isn't ok, we are still going to love and cherish the babies for as long as they are with us. We will love them the same way we loved Gabriel all those months we carried him. We will honor and enjoy their life with us, no matter how brief.

As much as I would do anything to have our son here with us, I wouldn't change a thing about our journey and everything we experienced (if it absolutely HAS to have the same outcome). We loved him, we cherished every moment with him both before and after his birth, and we'll do the same if something isn't right this time around.

If you can spare any T&Ps for a couple babies and their very nervous momma and daddy I'd really appreciate it. I'll be sure to update as soon as I can.