feeling disappointed plus small vent

klgrh6

OB has been saying for the past 3 weeks that around 38 we would probably induce because of high bp. I was put on bed rest as of saturday and apparently it's helping since today's appointment showed a lowest bp than I've had in almost a month. Because of that he wants to let LO cook longer and check again friday. I'm barely dialated, cervix is behind LO's head, and LO is low but not engaged. He's hoping that waiting another week will help me progress on my own which would help the induction process if we still go that route. After my stay in L&D last weekend, OB, nurses, DH and myself all believed we'd be back there by the end of week or beginning of next to deliver. Now it's not looking that way. Family have been getting excited, DH is ready for paternity leave from work (he feels like he's checked out already) and I'm just excited/afraid to have her here.

I know it's best for her to stay in as long as possible and that she could still show up whenever she's ready. It feels disappointing to be told one thing then have the plan changed. And it means I'm stuck dealing with my family/in laws which are driving me crazy. It's constantly, "do you need anything?", "we're here if you need us,"  "any contractions", and everytime it rains, "she's definitely coming during this storm".

Tarta

Aww, I know it sucks with everyone all antsy to meet your LO including you. I will recommend what helped me when I was about to burst with anticipation for DD to arrive.

I sat down and wrote DD a letter. I told her all about how I could barely stand waiting anymore and why I wanted to see her and how I felt scared and excited etc. etc. I waxed and wained and let every detail out. It was totally cathartic. Then, at the end of my letter I had this moment of realization that I was just days away from never being the complete center of my child's world again. It was kind of life-altering for me and I think it's when I let go of all my disappointment and came to peace with DD coming out on her own timing.

For now, you alone have access to your baby. Everything she does and experiences is YOU. You are her universe and your body is caring for her every need intuitively. It's such a sacred thing. Just days from now you'll be in a whole new reality of having to share your child with the world. She will be exposed to new people and things and grow faster than your eyes can believe.

Try to focus on the singularity of the situation and come to peace with it. I had that moment a few days before DD's EDD and after letting go of all my expectations, she decided to come right on her due date.

Also, that letter started a tradition for me. I wrote it in a little notebook I had from her shower where people had written well wishes. Now I write her letters every so often in that same book and I will give it to her when she is older. Every time I feel overwhelmed by how quickly she's growing or a milestone she's passed, I sit down and express myself to her. I hope it's something she'll treasure when she's older.

What a beautiful thing for a child to read, that their mother just could barely stand to wait for their arrival. Package up all that anticipation and excitement and preserve it for her to relish when she's older. ) Seriously, write a letter. 

 

MomiJerz

I think I would be greatful rather then dissapointed with 2 weeks left, thats what is best for baby. Especially since your BP is no longer an issue. I don't know just me.

MrsMom148

Tarta:

Aww, I know it sucks with everyone all antsy to meet your LO including you. I will recommend what helped me when I was about to burst with anticipation for DD to arrive.

I sat down and wrote DD a letter. I told her all about how I could barely stand waiting anymore and why I wanted to see her and how I felt scared and excited etc. etc. I waxed and wained and let every detail out. It was totally cathartic. Then, at the end of my letter I had this moment of realization that I was just days away from never being the complete center of my child's world again. It was kind of life-altering for me and I think it's when I let go of all my disappointment and came to peace with DD coming out on her own timing.

For now, you alone have access to your baby. Everything she does and experiences is YOU. You are her universe and your body is caring for her every need intuitively. It's such a sacred thing. Just days from now you'll be in a whole new reality of having to share your child with the world. She will be exposed to new people and things and grow faster than your eyes can believe.

Try to focus on the singularity of the situation and come to peace with it. I had that moment a few days before DD's EDD and after letting go of all my expectations, she decided to come right on her due date.

Also, that letter started a tradition for me. I wrote it in a little notebook I had from her shower where people had written well wishes. Now I write her letters every so often in that same book and I will give it to her when she is older. Every time I feel overwhelmed by how quickly she's growing or a milestone she's passed, I sit down and express myself to her. I hope it's something she'll treasure when she's older.

What a beautiful thing for a child to read, that their mother just could barely stand to wait for their arrival. Package up all that anticipation and excitement and preserve it for her to relish when she's older. ) Seriously, write a letter. 

 

Loved this, ALL of it. Thanks for sharing