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RE cut me loose...

thefunonethefunone
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Well just got my results...FSh is still high ...93...(better than the 140 reading I got in August)... no AF since May 5th. Fragile X Sydrome genetic testing came back normal (relief for my 22 month old baby girl). MRI of petuitary gland came back normal. Premature ovarian failure...in other words your ovaries are failing and we dont know why. RE basically said 'you are more than welcome to try on your own'...but we will see you every six months to monitor your estrogen levels!

I want to scream on the mountaintops!!! I AM 32!!!!! I AM 32!!! COME ON NOW!!! 

...meanwhile...Snookie is procreating! ...ok...THAT was uncalled for.. ;) (BUT DONT TELL ME YOU GUYS DIDNT THINK THE SAME THING)...but I'm flipping mad!...and sad....

I am not giving up...athough DE is not an option for us...(religous reasons)...I am going to take care of my body and my baby girl...and try without the white coats and fancy machines...if God wants to bless my tummy with a little soul HE will do so without the money, without the needles, without the meds...HE will do so with prayer and faith and maybe a few tears. I'm not in denial ( at least I dont think so  :)  )... But I have faith and although that maybe all I have left in this IF game; FAITH and HE is bigger than all of us.

I am not leaving the boards...you ladies give me hope and laughes and tears...its all good for the soul...but I will probably just linger.... lots of love and hugs...

now...tell me you didnt get a kick out of the Snookie comment...I KNOW YOU ALL WERE THINKING THE SAME THING!!! ;)  

 

Me: 32 DH:32 Blessed with a miracle 11/2010 with fsh of 16 at the time. TTC #2 5/24/12 Provera 10 days - No AF 6/12/12 BETA Neg (Day 18 after provera) AMH -.01 Premature Ovarian Failure FSH 98.6 8/7/12 Still no AF!!! FSH 140!!! (yeah still processing that one!) 8/13/12 MRI of petuitary gland 8/13/12 Genetic consult 8/13/12 More bloodwork 813/12
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Re: RE cut me loose...

  • CeCe8579CeCe8579 member
    Hugs!!!
    Carly
    (Former UN: iloveshanej)

    Birdie born 05/01/2007
    Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017                                          


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  • efhoping2010efhoping2010 member
    I am sorry boo.  I hope you are blessed with a little miracle. 
    H: 34 dx Azoospermia due to CBAVD from CF  
    ME: 39 IS FINE!!!  DOR and poor AMH/FSH/LH
    IVF/ICSI/PESA #1 Beta 1 373 Beta 2 1783 BOY/GIRL TWINS!! Born April 2010!!
    Natural FET 5/26/12 2 blasts Beta 1 207 Beta 2 513 Beta 3 1377 U/S 6/28 Pregnancy not viable d & c scheduled :( 
    IVF/ICSI/PESA #2 ER 11/15/12 Nothing to transfer :( 
    IVF/ICSI #3 April 2013 MDLF 3dt of 3 embryos, chemical :(  
    IVF #4/ICSI/MESA/CCS/FET EPP April 2015
    ODWU CCRM with Dr. Sch COMPLETE!!!! Put on acai supplement they are studying for DOR and embryo quality.
    DAY 3 Labs Drawn 2/26 put on vitamin D and calcium supplements
    Regroup and Protocol Reveal 3/04 "Bazooka Protocol" EPP with MDLF "Protocol 6 with patches"
    ER/MESA 4/10 ER 9 eggs retrieved MESA success found live swimmers :)
    Fertilization Report 6 eggs mature and ICSI'd 4 eggs fertilized normally
    Day 6 Report to Blast for CCS 4/16: 2 DAY 5 BLASTS BIOPSIED FOR CCS a 4AB and a 3AB!!!!
    CCS Results BOTH BLASTS CCS NORMAL!!!!!!  call on 4/24
    Regroup call to discuss CCS results and FET call on 5/20
    FET prep: CD 1 6/08 CD 3 Start BCP 6/10, HSG 6/12 Lupron Start 10 iu 6/17 End BCP 6/21 CD 1 6/23!!!
    Start vivelle patches 6/25 change e/o/d reduce Lupron to 5iu 6/25 Blood Draw 7/01, 7/08, 7/15, 7/19
    Increase vivelle patches 7/03 2 change e/o/d and 7/05 change e/o/d 3 and 7/07 4 change e/o/d add vaginal estrace 2x a day
    Lining Check/Blood Draw 7/08 and 7/15 End Lupron 7/18  Start PIO 1ml daily 7/18  Blood  Draw 7/19
    Flight to clinic 7/22
    FET 2 CCS BLASTS :):)  7/23 :):) YES YES both thawed and both fully expanded :):)
    7/26 :):) 3dp5dt PM very very faint positive FRER
    7/27: 4dp5dt Neg Digi AM but very very faint positive FRER PM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 1-2 :):) 
    7/31:8dp5dt AM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 2-3!!!! :):) 
    Beta 1 8/01= 408!!!!!!!!!! at 9dp5dt FET
    Beta 2 8/03 = 1014!!!!!!!!!! at 11dp5dt FET
    8/05/2015 AM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 3+!!!! :):) 
    First Ultrasound: 8/20!!!!!! TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Genetics says BOTH BOYS!!!!!!!!!
    Second Ultrasound: 9/03!!!!!!!!!!










     










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  • jeannaqueenajeannaqueena member

    I am so sorry.  But, try and focus on the blessing for your little girlie!  What wonderful news!!!  

    FX for a miracle for you!  

    TTC#1: 14 months on our own (did HSG, b/w, SA);
    BFP on Cycle 14--TWINS! Identical twin boys stillborn at 19wks(1/9/10)
    3 break cycles; took clomid 50mg, BFP #2 Beta #1 35, Beta #2 338!!! Owen was born 2/11/11! 
    TTC#2: 4 cycles on clomid: BFNs
    BFP #3: Cycle #5 100mg clomid; beta #1 21; beta #2 6=CP 
    Cycle #6 break cycle TTC no meds=BFN
    Cycle #7: 150 clomid+ovidril+IUI=BFN (switched to RE)
    Cycle #8: follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #9 Forced break due to cyst
    Cycle #10 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle #11 follistem+ovidril+TI=BFN
    Cycle#12 Forced break due to cyst, went on BCP; did repeat HSG, Saline U/S
    Cycle #13 IVF: Follistim/Menapur ER 11-30 11 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized and 3dt on 12-3; BFN
    Cycle #14: IVF#2 lupron/follistim/menopur ER 1-22, 19 eggs, 14 fertilized, 5dt on 1-27, BFP!! beta 1: 63, beta 2: 119; EDD 10-15-13; 1 frozen embie
    Miracle Surprise BFP, EDD 10-1-15; saw HB great Betas, 11weeks lost baby MC at home
    Moved forward with FET transfered solo frostie on 6-4-15, beta 1: 315, beta 2: 738, u/s showed one baby on track EDD 2-21-16
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  • carrieteecarrietee
    I am new here, but just saw this...i am 31 and also have prematurely aging ovaries.  I feel like i have the same reaction as you, I am just so PO'ed about it!  we are going to try on our own as well at least for a few more cycles before trying something like IUI, our RE only gave us like a 5-10% chance to conceiving naturally though.  its so frustrating but i also am just trying to have faith and trust in the overall plan.  good luck to you! 
    Baby #1 born March 2010 TTC baby #2 since July 2011 DX: low AMH, prematurely aging ovaries
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