Finally getting somewhere!! (kinda long)

TricksyPixie

Hello, I think I will start with a short re introduction. I joined the bump a year or so ago, back when my dh and I first started talking about having kids, but I was still considering from every angle. After much meditating, praying, consideration and coming to terms with myself, I decided I was ready, and very much wanting a baby. So we talked about it. We've looked at finances and our long term goals, and we reached the point in our life where we were sure we wanted this probably in November, although we had been see-sawing on it for about a year. 

Sadly, I needed to be fixed. I had unstable periods due to a problem the pill caused me when I took it for three months in college (plus at the time I had multiple infections, a cold, and a flu. My doc roots the majority of what happened to that point in time) we just got me on insurance in October, and in April I was given progesterone and told to carefully chart my cycles and if I was not pregnant in six months to a year, to come back. My periods came back to an easy normal (with the exception of my last which was two unconsecutive days  of spotting) and I've been making careful observations and using an opk every day. Last month was rocky at best. 

 Recently, a good friend of mine found out she was pregnant, and although I was MAJORLY happy for her, I was so envious and slightly angry. It's a side I've never known myself to have, but it's become more and more prevalent recently, as a cousin's girlfriend had a baby recently, and it seems more and more of my friends are getting pregnant or are have kids. It's frustrating because we want a baby so badly! But this past week, after almost losing all hope I'd ever see an lh surge, and all hope I'd ever get pregnant, I meditated and prayed for the strength to accept that other than what I'm already doing, there is nothing I can do, and the rest is out of my hands. I prayed for the strength to hold on to hope and not give up on what I really want, because if it is worth it, I need to keep trying. And the strength came to me! A few nights ago, in a whirlwind of spontaneity, my dh and I got a little busy, and the next morning, I had a little smile on my opk. I nearly cried, after months of struggling, crying, praying... I got a sign, at least a SIGN that I've made the right choice by holding on. I'm on the right track. Even if I don't get pregnant... Its a start, right?

im just happy.. So happy, that maybe we will get somewhere soon. And I needed to let that joy out. 

WifeyProverbs31

I'm sorry for the problems and frustrations you've been experiencing since your first conversation with YH. OPKs are a great place to start, but look into charting your CM and BBT. It's a very easy process to learn and do, and it helps you know exactly what your body is doing and confirm ovulation. This should give you peace of mind as well. Fertilityfriend.com is the source that most of us ladies here use. Also, it's totally normal to feel envious when other's announce pregnancy, but don't let it consume you. Good luck!

TricksyPixie

I use the opk's in tandem with charting my cm, and I tried bbt for about four months, but my temp seems a little unstable and unreliable. I've been charting my cm since we first talked, and it is reliable to a degree, but the only time it was 100% accurate was this past weekend. I have a paper chart and one on my phone, because should I have to go to a doctor again, I'd like to have the things to show her exactly what is happening.. And thank you!

HarleyQuinn7161

What I've learned is that the only way to confirm ovulation is to track your temps, even if they seem unstable. OPKs do not confirm O, they only let you know that your body is preparing to O. Many of us use fertility friend to track temps. You put in you temp and other signs and it does most of the work for you. It also has wonderful tutorials to help understand how it works. You can click on the ticker in mine or anyone else's siggy to link you. Good luck to you!

mummalove

It's an emotional journey...good luck to you!

beth9409

I'm sorry that you have had such a frustrating time. I would recommend reading Taking Charge of your Fertility. Also Fertility Friend is a great resource and most ladies on here use it. Click on anyone's ticker and it will take you there. They also have a phone app that links to the website. You can print your charts off and take to your doctor.

I ditto PPs recommedation to chart temps. If your temps (after being taken at the same time every day +/- 30 minutes, after 3 hours of sleep) are still rocky, you could consider vaginal temping. Several ladies do this and it helps. BBT charting is the best way to learn what is really going on with your cycle.

Sometimes you might need to test OPKs more than once a day because you could have a short surge and miss it by testing once a day. A lot of ladies use the Wondfo OPKs from Amazon because they're super cheap and then confirm a positive with a digital. Using a digital that many times can get expensive.

ETA: Your temp should also be taken as soon as you wake up, before getting out of bed, talking, or drinking anything.

TricksyPixie

Thanks ladies! I've looked at fertility friend, and ive been thinking about starting an account. So I think I will. And I think I'll start temping again with a little more stability. I have a really weird sleep sched.