Seeing my dr tomorrow

dragossoul84

Tomorrow I'm going to see my dr well one in the practice my Dr's wife gave birth two days after me so shes out on maternity leave. I think I have ppd but I'm not sure how to start the conversation with her or important questions to ask. I feel sad and I'm starting to feel alone even though I have an amazing supportive husband. I feel so guilty because I feel like I'm not doing enough for my baby my milk never really came in I get an ounce a night that I pump and give to him. Some times I find myself getting annoyed with him because his days and nights are reversed. I am awake 20 hours a day up all night with him and then when I try to sleep when he's sleeping I wake up gasping because I'm sure he's stopped breathing and I have to check him. I love my baby but I feel miserable because I should be happier to look after him we had five early term miscarriages before Alex and I always said how grateful to get up at night and to complain or get depressed about it now makes me feel like a lousy Mom.

winter-shock

I think a lot of us on here have all felt the same. I think with your doctor I would just come right out and try to be as honest as possible with how you are feeling. And try and find the best option for help for YOU. Being a new mom can be a really lonely thing sometimes, especially when you feel like this. I hope you have a great appointment. 

cbmp06

Aw honey! You are not a lousy mom.  Of course you are grateful to have your precious baby boy!  But its hard NOT to be annoyed at everything when you have been up for 20 hours.  You are definitely not alone.  Be honest about how you feel to your dr so you can get the help that you need.  Good luck at your appointment, mama!  *hugs*

Amberrrr

Don't feel like a lousy mom! You just had a baby two weeks ago. That is by far the biggest adjustment ever. It takes so much out of you. If you can fall asleep, take naps when baby naps. Your mental health and physical well being is the most imporant thing right now. 

Whn I was still getting used to my LO, I would wake up in the middle of the night searching the sheets for him, terrified. I would scream at my H to help me find him... But he was  safe and sound in his bassinet.

You'll adjust. Just take care of yourself.