Staring at my estradiol...
BeckyP005
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Well tomorrow is the day I start this for my mock cycle. I know it sounds silly but so many thoughts are going on in my head. I keep staring at it as if it's poison or something. Don't flame me but since I have been in limbo I had more time to think and I wonder if I could go through with this. Can I be an older mom? Right now my life is so easy. I guess I'm just nervous and scared. Right? Then I'm hoping I can put this tiny pill inside of me far enough....TMI I know....sorry.
I had a physical today with family dr and told him about the DE IVF and he didn't say anything for what it seemed like minutes! I know it's my own decision but he has know me since a child and thought he would be a little more excited. Ok i'm done rambling 
I'm saying it's nerves.
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Re: Staring at my estradiol...
Hey, it's normal to be nervous. And believe me, when I see people wrestling with a thousand bags, 3 screaming kids, and a beat-up old car that barely gets them to point B, I think "well, if it doesn't work out for me, at least I won't have to deal with THAT malarchy." How could you not? I mean, the first words out of those people's mouths are usually "Don't you just want some of your own right now?"
There are positives and negatives to every choice we make-- and it is 100% natural to question them from time to time. It's healthy.
And forget the family doctor-- he probably didn't have a CLUE what to say, if you were excited about it, sad about it, etc. So he sat there in shock instead.
Enjoy your mock cycle, if that's possible. And I cannot imagine you'll have a problem getting your estradiol where it needs to be. I'm guessing you can be resourceful when you need to be!
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Hey...atleast a got a script for xanax from him if things don't go my way
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Me 41 DH 46 Not actively ttc, surprise BFP on 1/6/11! 4/1/11 m/c our sunshine at 16wks after complications from CVS test. TTC #2 **5th cycle 12/6/11 BFP! Missed m/c at 9 weeks 1/21/12, trisomy 14. Two Chemical PG 3/12&7/12
** BFP 8/16/12 beta #1 148! beta#2 407 beta #3 4000 u/s 9.10 1 lovely hb 126, Baby Boy is due 04/28/13!!
Me: 36, DH: 42
Dx: DOR and MFI
DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal
IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!
SAIFW/PAIFW
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
Yes you can do this! I know you can. The people who don't have doubts, at any age, are just naive. I'm very excited for you.
I just had a very, very naughty thought...
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Daniele you do realize you have some serious issues....right? Heehee. Btw it would be for Tim McGraw
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!
I'm a rugby player-- we think bad, dirty things a lot. And I'm a nurse-- so I have a very black sense of humour.
And I'm me, so I have practically no filter. It's part of my charm (that's what I tell myself, anyhow)!
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You've been waiting a long time to get started--cold feet were bound to set in. You will be fine!
FFC? I never used the applicators that came with PreSeed, but they came in handy one cycle for launching a tab of Estrace up the vag. Good luck!
TTC since 10/2010
IUIs # 1-5 = BFFN
IVF # 1(July 2012) = BFN
IVF # 2 (November 2012) = BFP (MIssed MC D&C @ 8w3d on 1/10/13)
ticker warning...
Becky, you know you want this and CAN do this. Nerves are absolutely normal. Just shove that sucker up as far as you can get it, and remember that pantyliners are your friend! Have a great time at the concert tonight!