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Haven't been on the board much...

I've felt really overwhelmed lately. I just found out the BFP I got last week is likely a blighted ovum or a very early ectopic. This will be my 5th miscarriage since TTC #2. If one more @sshole  tells me that, "it could be worse, you could have no kids" or "DS will be okay. He has so many friends". I am going to flip out. I usually spend most of my time on the TTCAL board, but things like those comments are something only you ladies truly understand. I just want to say I'm sorry we're here. I am so angry for all of us, our SO's and our kids.
MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
Rainbow Jude 
born: 12/31/09
Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

TTC#2 10/2010
M/C: 4/09/11 5w
CP: 12/26/2011 
CP: 1/28/2012 
MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
CP 11/24/2012 
Rainbow Violet 
born: 9/11/13

All ALers welcome! 

Re: Haven't been on the board much...

  • I haven't experienced the losses you have but I can certainly identify with comments from others and the deep desire for another child.  I am so sorry we're here too! Sometimes it all feels completely overwhelming.
    TTC #2 for 18 months RE for 7 months progesterone=BFN/ clomid=BFN/ IUI#1 with clomid =BFN laparoscopy-Diagnosed with stage 2 endometriosis. IUI#2 letrozole/follistim combo...baby #2 due 3/23/2013
  • I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry. I sometimes lurk on TTCAL and I saw your posts.

    There are really no words...and I think the best thing anyone can say is "it just sucks." That's all I ever wanted to hear.  Or really just someone to listen to me.  I always hate hear those comments too. Big HUGS!

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    I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry. I sometimes lurk on TTCAL and I saw your posts.

    There are really no words...and I think the best thing anyone can say is "it just sucks." That's all I ever wanted to hear.  Or really just someone to listen to me.  I always hate hear those comments too. Big HUGS!

    I feel like "It just sucks" is starting to irritate me too. I feel like, sucks for who? You? You have two kids so obviously it doesn't suck for you as much as it sucks for me! Those fertile B's. Damned if they do, damned if they don't! lol.

    MC 4/09 at 6w2d 
    Rainbow Jude 
    born: 12/31/09
    Pre-E Induction at 36w4d
    11 Day NICU stay due to GBS infection

    TTC#2 10/2010
    M/C: 4/09/11 5w
    CP: 12/26/2011 
    CP: 1/28/2012 
    MMC: 4/16/2012 at 11w2d 
    Ectopic: 6/25/2012 MTX 07/03/12
    CP 11/24/2012 
    Rainbow Violet 
    born: 9/11/13

    All ALers welcome! 
  • Ugh, I must have missed your post last week.  I get irriated by everyone's words of wisdom so I won't give you any. At least know you can vent here and we understand this all too well:(

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    10/19/11 mc @ 17wks- Trisomy 18
    IUI #1 4/26/12 BFN
    Moving on to IVF in July
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    ER 7/14/12 6R 5F, ET 7/17 3 embies, beta #1 7/26: 147, beta #2 7/28: 326, beta#3 7/30: 422...ugh, beta#4 7/31: 607...hopeful, beta #5 8/2: 1280, beta #6 8/7: 7184 and u/s shows 1 possibly 2 sacs! 8/14 2 beautiful heartbeats! 9/24 we are TEAM BLUE!!!!!
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  • All I have are a bunch of hugs.  IF is an unfair b:tch.
    Me: 30, DOR with a FSH of 12.5
    DH: 31, no issues
    4-6/2012 100mg of Clomid + trigger + IUI/TI = BFN
    7/2012 150mg of Gonal-f + trigger + IUI = BFN
    8/2012 Surprise unmedicated BFP!! Due May 8, 2013
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    All I have are a bunch of hugs.  IF is an unfair b:tch.

     

    I agree! I'm so sorry. *creepy, internet stranger hugs*

    TTC#2 since December 2010. HSG and bloodwork all good. SA results not so good. Unmedicated IUI#1 6/19/2012 - BFN
  • Ugh, people say such sh*tty a*s things.  I'm so sorry, friend.  Like my mom said to me recently, just because I have one child does not mean I am any less deserving than anyone else to have a baby.  That always brings me a lot of comfort... my mom is pretty much a tell-it-like-it-is, no bull kinda lady from North Philly :)

    I know it's tough, and 5 miscarriages is so sad.  I'm sorry you are going through this again.

    Met: 1/21/2005
    Married: 6/27/2008
    DS: 3/14/2010 Planned, PG first try
    M/C 6/2012
    DD: 4/22/2013 Planned, UnDx Infertility, PG on our own
    BFP: 10/28/2016 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE! 
    M/C 12/12/2016
    BFP: 10/27/2017 Unplanned, HUGE SURPRISE
    EDD: 7/2/2018


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  • I'm so sorry.  ((hugs))
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    Ugh, people say such sh*tty a*s things.  I'm so sorry, friend.  Like my mom said to me recently, just because I have one child does not mean I am any less deserving than anyone else to have a baby.  That always brings me a lot of comfort... my mom is pretty much a tell-it-like-it-is, no bull kinda lady from North Philly :)

    I know it's tough, and 5 miscarriages is so sad.  I'm sorry you are going through this again.

    I love this.  Your mom is awesome!  That exactly sums up our (collective) situations.

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    DD conceived after 3 years of ttc.
    MFI - DH had varicocele repair and took Clomid to get DD b. 02/2010

    TTC #2 since 6/2010
    10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
    A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013. 
    DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair. 
    Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies. 
    Wishing, hoping, waiting.


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  • I am so sorry!
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  • Hi, I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry for your loss.  I am also going through my 5th miscarriage which was a blighted ovum after taking clomid.  I have a 4 year old son who was conceived between losses 2 and 3.  I used to post on TTCAL sometimes but mostly lurk.  I don't feel like I'm in the same spot as many of the ladies, and I'm not sure where I fit in.  You're right; it's hard and it totally sucks.  

     

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