Well things did not turn out well. We saw a perfect baby with a good h/b at 9w and I was released from my RE. I went to my first ob appt. 4 days later and found that it was gone. I had a d&c a week ago and it has been a pretty awful week needless to say. So now with miscarriage #3 I am feeling pretty hopeless that this will ever work out. Our plan is to ttc again after the 2 cycle waiting period.
I don't know if I want to go back to the RE yet. Right before I got pg I had run a bunch of tests including the shg, hsg, rpl bloodwork, karyotyping and more. Everything came up normal so we have no reason for these losses. I didn't have a treatment cycle and I never ended up getting to my cd3 bloodwork but I don't know how much that matters right now. I can get pg, I just can't stay pg. I guess I am just going to hope that the odds will work in our favor eventually.
Up to this point we told no one about the losses or ttc. Well we decided to tell our parents about it all and everyone has been very supportive. It just feels so uncomfortable though. Like now everyone feels sorry for me and my "problem". I just didn't want to risk any more comments by people (mil) about when we will have babies etc.
This weekend is my birthday and we had planned on having the family over for a party and announce the pg. Well I nixed that idea because I just can't handle it right now. Especially with my sil's newborn it just would not be a good time for me. I am having a really hard time with this one and I am just trying to get through each day.
Well thanks for reading ladies. Hopefully soon I will be able to start participating and supporting all of you in your journeys.