It's been a month since I m/c but I just found out my bf is pregnant and I'm a mess. It's not that I'm not happy for her but this girl has forcibly made herself m/c in college, she did drugs, smokes and drinks daily and hid it from her family so she didn't go to doctors and didn't take prenatals. Nothing! Then there is me who eats extrememly healthy, took prenatals, never smokes, and drinks pretty lightly on special occassions and I m/c. She is having a healthy baby and I get nothing.
I came home upset after hearing this and my husband got mad at me saying that I needed to get over it and move on. That I shoudl go talk to someone so I can move on. The pregnancy was a surprise but I've wanted to be a mother since I was little. It is all I've ever wanted. To finally have it and then lose it is devastating to me. I don't understand how he can't see that? It wasn't planned but I've been planning on haveing a kid before I was planning to have a husband (my barbies always got knocked up).
I do have support from some family but I really wish I had the support of my husband to know that this is still devestating and scary for me. AND he wants to wait a while (5 months) before we try this time. All that time I'm going to be wondering if I will ever be able to get pregant again and it just worries me all the time.