Savoring the moments... anyone else?

tittytwistertortoises

Can we just pause time for awhile?  Throughout my life (like every stage), I couldn't stop and enjoy it, I wanted the next thing.  When I was in Elementary School, I couldn't wait till Middle School, Middle School I watched 90210 and thought that High School was the place to be.  Then that came and I couldn't wait to get out and go to college.  Then I wanted to get married, which took 13 years with my then bf now dh.  I was fine waiting on the baby thing, not in a rush because I enjoyed being selfish.

Now that I have my DS (and I have tears in my eyes writing this), I just want time to stand still.  I want to savor every moment.  I never want to go back to work even though the plan is to go back 50% in the Fall.  I love being a mommy.  This is my calling in life.  I never thought I would be good at it, but I am.  My mom and sister are so amazed at how natural I am; they were a little concerned because of my high expectations in life and how I hate when things don't go my way.  But they see a totally different side to me. 

I don't want to miss a moment. I have never enjoyed the moments as much as I do now.  

I am starting to comb through our finances tonight to see if I really need to go back like DH thinks.  For us I think it is all about choices.  I think we can do it on DH salary but we have to choose that and make some adjustments.   We will see...

Now the Aerosmith song of Don't Want to Miss a Thing is circling around in my brain.  I am too sappy today.

 

katea81

Yep. Right there with ya! Last night we had a good cuddle session as he was falling asleep (which almost never happens) and I was thinking the exact same thing. Tears were in my eyes too! I, though, also think a lot about who he will be, what he will be like as he gets older, what cards life will hand him, etc. It's an awesome thing to see someone at the very beginning of their life with all of the world's offerings available to them.  Leaves me speechless, really!

 

 

kms34

I fully understand.  With DS1 I couldn't wait for the next thing....STTN, rolling over, solids, crawling, walking, talking.  I was constantly looking forward.  With DS2 I am in no hurry. I now realize just how fast time does go.  I swear a year ago I was holding DS1 as a newborn and he'll be THREE in less than 2 months.  How did this happen!? 

DS2 is our last baby and I'm trying to soak it all in and just enjoy him.  I'm not stressed about what's next, I'm enjoying today.