I have actually been kind of shocked with how I have been handling this nightmare. I guess we are just so busy right now what with moving and whatnot. But I have not had a ton of time to really go through my loss. My sister just had a baby on mother's day and so I was over at her house today (which is hard, but again I have been pretty functional around my niece despite my sorrow), and a lady dropped by lunch for her. And she's pregnant. I couldn't handle it. I was crying and just wanted to run away. This pregnant lady has been through a heartbreaking SID loss last year so it's not that I was mad at her. But it just reminded me that I was empty. i hurt so much today. It's just so weird to be functional for a few days and then fall down on my face again. I hate it.