1 Week & 3 Days...

xxswebbxx

since our angel left for heaven.

DD is sick so she stayed home from school today. The past few days have been hard....lots of crying mixed with disbelief (this is not my life!) & anger. Jada is only 6 (but much more mature) so she is trying to understand but most of what she says brings me to tears. I was actually "afraid" (because it upsets her when I cry) to be home alone with her all day today but I'm glad she was. BRU called today to check to see if I got my 10% off my registery coupon & I lost it on the poor lady. Jada came running to my room, hugged me & told me, "Mommy it's ok to cry". This coming from a 6 year old when most adults don't even know what to say to me. She is my little rock....what I need to get threw this. She asked if she could write a letter to Olivia & send it to heaven along with other things...her toys & blanket from the hospital and a headband. She wants to make sure she has things in heaven. As hard as it was to hear what she wanted to tell her little sister I felt better after. No I wasn't able to get threw writting the letter for her with out crying BUT DD inspired me to write my little angel my own letter. We didn't have much time with Olivia...I heard her cry & I can still smell her but don't even know what color her eyes were. I really want to hold her again...hopefully my own letter will help with some of what I'm going threw.

 Hope all you ladies are having a "good" day.

pb127

Your Jada really is very mature for her age!! She is so sweet and I love what she told you.  I also wrote a letter to DS and I write a blog "to" him when I can... I hope this will help you too.  Big, big (((hugs))) to you and Jada!

xxswebbxx

I think a blog is a good thing. A place to vent so all the negative things don't always have to go on here. I couldn't get my blog on the bump site to work so i got one from blogspot.

tubbsy32

((Hugs))  I feel like I crave to hold Jacob. And I love the letter to heaven idea, children are amazing!

pb127

xxswebbxx:

I think a blog is a good thing. A place to vent so all the negative things don't always have to go on here. I couldn't get my blog on the bump site to work so i got one from blogspot.

It's totally okay to share them here too. We've been there and completely understand

weddedwife

I'm sorry, those first few weeks are very, very hard. Your DD will help you get through this. Mine is only 2 and I know she doesn't understand but she was and is my reason to keep going. Hug her tight, mama!