Threw myself a BFN pity party...
So, when it became for sure today, I kinda lost it. I got home from work and cried for a while, then went to cold stone and got the largest size cookie dough explosion. And, then for dinner had a wendy's spicy chicken combo meal and a chocolate frosty. I feel a little gross now - but also a little calmer and more back to my normal self.
I have to take a break for a few months. I'm moving back to the states (which is great) but will have to get settled and find a new doctor... Realistically, I am out until July or August, depending on how quickly my body responds. So, now that my pity party is over, starting tomorrow, I am going to focus on losing the 25 pounds I've gained in the last 3 months in the hopes that it helps me on this journey. I mostly wanted to see this in black and white to hold myself accountable. Pity party over, time to move on.
Re: Threw myself a BFN pity party...
Sorry about the BFN!! I'm sure it's so disappointing!! :-(
And good luck with your big move back to the states!!! I cannot imagine what all would go into that kind of a move (I just moved across country and that was a huge transition....I cannot imagine international!!) Are you guys just going to sell all of your furniture or try to move it back? Good luck with all of that!!
And a big HIGH FIVE to you for trying to get healthy and lose some of the extra weight before TTC again!!! Best of luck with healthier eating and excercise!! Way to go!!
Thanks!!
Luckily, being military, they move all my stuff for me. I just have to coordinate it. I did sell my car though, because I didn't want to wait for it to be shipped. I'm so ready to be back stateside. The hardest part I think will just be putting all of this on standstill until I get settled again. GL to you too!
Ugh!
I think trying to lose the weight is a good idea...at least you can feel like you're doing something while in between treatment cycles. Good luck with the move!
Sometimes we all serve a pity party! I hope you enjoyed it to the fullest.
Good luck with your move, July will be here before you know it and you will be back in the swing of things.
Clomid- No response
Metformin 1500 mg Femara 5mg + Trigger + TI Round 2 = BFP!
Beta 13DPO: 115, Beta 16dpo: 561 BFP Chart
We all deserve a pity party every now and again. Way to pick yourself up and set a goal for your down time. For me the months we can't try seem to be the hardest, but having a goal or distractions always help. Moving and diet should be excellant distractions. Good luck with both!
Nov 2011 50mg of Chlomid, but IUI was cancelled b/c the follicles were too small
Dec 2011 100mg of Chlomid and IUI on Dec 17; BFP Dec 29, mc on Jan 5;
Feb 2012 Changed Doctors and diagnosed with Insulin Resistance, put on 1500mg of Metformin;
April 2012 Natural Cycle;
May 2012 7.5mg of Famera w/TI (due to office being closed on holiday) = BFN;
June 2012 7.5mg of Famera w/IUI #2 = BFN;
July 2012 7.5mg of Famera w/IUI #3 = BFN;
August 2012 7.5mg Famera + 75 Follistim w/TI (due to travel) = BFN;
Sept 7.5mg Femera + 75 Follistim
Thanks for the support! It's nice to know I'm not the only one who has to have herself a little pity party every now and then. I feel ten times better today, still not happy, but not quite as empty and alone as I felt yesterday.
On a postive note, my mom is becoming more understanding. We were skyping yesterday, and she knew that it was about time for me to test, and she didn't just take my down attitude as a BFN. She actually made me say outloud that it was negative. And then proceed to prattle on about all the new things that my toddler neice and nephews were doing. I finally started losing it and in a high-squeaky voice asked her if we could talk about something else. She was really taken aback and started apologizing and explaining that she thought hearing about the kids would cheer me up. I quickly explained that normally it would just.not.today. So, this morning when I signed in online, she called to apologize! My mom typically doesn't apologize - she always has very good intentions, and never means to be insensitive - so she doesn't normally get it. I have a policy not to actually talk to her about IF, but she gets enough bits and pieces from my sister to know when enough of the details to ask.
Well, hope you all are having a good day! Again, thanks for the support.
I'm so glad your mom was understanding and called back. IF is a hard thing for people who have never gone through it themselves to understand.
Everyone deserves a pity party every now and then. Glad you are feeling better about everything today.