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Feeling sorry for myself

ellephuntellephunt member
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SIL is having her baby today and I'm feeling sorry for myself. And then guilty that I'm not so incredibly happy for her. It doesn't help that my IL's are giving me minute by minute updates. *sigh*
TTC #1 since 11/10 | Diagnosed with PCOS 11/28/11 | Lap 1/20/12: stage 2 endo & cyst removal
Clomid- No response
Metformin 1500 mg Femara 5mg + Trigger + TI Round 2 = BFP!
Beta 13DPO: 115, Beta 16dpo: 561 BFP Chart
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  • maggie2324maggie2324 member
    It's ok to feel that way! Don't beat yourself up about it. Do something for you and try to get your mind off of it.
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  • LyssRobLyssRob member

    :(  I am so sorry.  I think it's definitely harder when its your own family...too many emotions.

    PCOS 
    Off bcp March 2011 
    Aug 2011-Feb 2012 tried to regulate cycles w/ Metformin -- no luck 
    April 2012: Clomid (50mg) + Injects + TI = BFN
    May 2012: Clomid (100mg) + Injects + TI = BFP on 6/8/12   

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  • ellephuntellephunt member

    imagemaggie2324:
    It's ok to feel that way! Don't beat yourself up about it. Do something for you and try to get your mind off of it.

    I bought myself a dress last night to make myself feel better. I either need some more shopping therapy or find something else to do lol. 

    TTC #1 since 11/10 | Diagnosed with PCOS 11/28/11 | Lap 1/20/12: stage 2 endo & cyst removal
    Clomid- No response
    Metformin 1500 mg Femara 5mg + Trigger + TI Round 2 = BFP!
    Beta 13DPO: 115, Beta 16dpo: 561 BFP Chart
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  • MrsT007MrsT007

    I completely understand! I got a text photo that my BFF was in labor the other day and broke down in tears. I hadn't happened in a long time, and I had THOUGHT that I had come to terms with her pregnancy, but having the baby makes it real... their real baby and IF more real for us.

    Hang in there! And enjoy that new dress!

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  • tmsetzer83tmsetzer83
    I'm sorry this is difficult for you. You're not alone in the way you feel. :-(
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  • ellephuntellephunt member
    I think the worst part of it all is that DH is an identical twin. So if this baby looks anything like her dad it will look like MH too. Which will kill me.
    TTC #1 since 11/10 | Diagnosed with PCOS 11/28/11 | Lap 1/20/12: stage 2 endo & cyst removal
    Clomid- No response
    Metformin 1500 mg Femara 5mg + Trigger + TI Round 2 = BFP!
    Beta 13DPO: 115, Beta 16dpo: 561 BFP Chart
    Lilypie First Birthday tickers

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  • DatsyuksMommyDatsyuksMommy
    I say turn off your phone and check your messages when you're feeling better, after a pedi and some new shoes to go with your new dress.
    Me: 26 DH: 32
    TTC since 08/2010
    Anovulatory since at least 12/2010 (probably longer, unDx)
    Dx PCOS 3/2012
    SA 5/25/12--normal
    June 2012--50mg clomid+TI--BFN
    July 2012--50mg clomid+Ovidrel+TI--BFN, lining at 5mm
    August 2012--5mg femara+Ovidrel+TI
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  • pulga131pulga131
    I know SIL is different than sister but when my sister was in labor I was feeling pretty darn sorry for myself too. I sat home and cried all day. My niece looks identical to my sister (and me b/c we are not twins but can't tell who is who i n our baby pics). Anyways I was afraid to cry and feel sorry for myself when I met her and I didn't.  That little girl brings me nothing but joy and I SO miss her when I don't see her.  I'm naming myself mommy #2 for her. ha.  Anyways I hope that it helps to hear this and that when you hold your nice or nephew he/she melts your heart away instead of bringing you more pain. 
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  • Native+GirlNative+Girl member

    imageellephunt:
    I think the worst part of it all is that DH is an identical twin. So if this baby looks anything like her dad it will look like MH too. Which will kill me.

    This would be hard to take. I'm sorry you're in a tough spot, but it's normal to feel the way you're feeling. Hopefully, that new dress will brighten your day a bit. ((hugs))

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    RPL & Karyotype testing normal

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  • notquiteblushingnotquiteblushing member
    Hugs.  It really sucks.  I hope you feel better today.
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  • huco30huco30
    It is normal to feel that way and if you are tired of the updates right now just shut your phone off.
    Diagnosed with Endometriosis 05/05
    O5/05 Lap #1 for diagnosis
    12/08 Lap #2 for pain management
    Married on October 3rd, 2009
    Me:30 DH: 35
    TTC since 05/10
    Clomid 25mg since 08/10
    06/11 IUI #1 ended with a m/c
    08/11 IUI #2 BFN
    09/11 IUI #3 BFN
    12/11 Lap #3 for IF
    04/12-06/12 Letrezole, Trigger shot, TI
    07/12 IUI #4 BFN
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  • btaylor19btaylor19 member
    I'm sorry, that would be really tough.

    TTC since 2010

    lots of IUIs and 1 IVF all BFNs

    FET currently on hold

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  • Jezebell26Jezebell26 member
    Big giant hugs to you!
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  • Jbromberg1985Jbromberg1985 member

    I'm sorry, but it's totally normal!  My sis had her second baby in January and I was super excited for her.  I went to the hospital when she was in labor and everything, and thought I was fine, and when my mom and I were walking out, we passed the nursery with all the newborns, and I lost it.  My poor mom didn't know what to do! 

    We're here for you!  Hang in there!

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