Hi Ladies-
Sorry that I have not been around the past month or so. I was on a self-imposed bump break (and forced IF break). Congrats to all that have had good news and big hugs to all of those who have had difficult times. I am sorry that I was not there to give support but between moving, starting a new job, not being able to do anything IF related- DH and I agreed that it would be healthier for me to try and concentrate on other things.
As for an update on me, in January I had a lap and hysteroscopy to remove a uterine septum and scar tissue. A stint was put in after to help my ute heal correctly. After the surgery I had really heavy bleeding and was out on bed rest but since then things have been progressing well and I have been healing. The stint was removed in Feb.
I went in for a repeat SHG and HSG yesterday and although my ute is much lovelier shape wise than it was before they said that I still had about 25% of the scar tissue and it was still blocking my right tube. I will now be going for another operative hysteroscopy with a possible lap (won't know about the lap until he gets in there and decides if he needs to do it) in April. That means I will have a stint until May and will then need two cycles off to heal. The earliest I can even try for an IUI will be August.
This will be my third operative hysteroscopy in a 12 months and our last IUI was in June 2011. I will be on a forced break without cycling at all for well over a year. I just want to be able to try. The waiting is killing me (and the surgeries are sucking up all of my money.) I spent all of yesterday in tears.
Sorry this turned into a really long vent- I just don't know what to do anymore. I would insert a picture of a cocktail here and offer you a drink for having read this whole thing but I'm on my iPad and have not figured out how to do it so (insert favorite cocktail here).
I will try to come on and post more but it is getting to the point for me where it is hard to watch others cycling and not be a part of it. For the first few months I tried to stay on and offer support, answer questions etc but it's just hard when I am not having shared experiences with all of you. Best of luck to everybody. Hope you all get your BFP soon.
Re: Back from bump break- sad and frustrated (long)
(((hugs)))
I'm sorry that the forced break has been so long - it's beyond frustrating. My forced break hasn't been as long as yours, but I know that realistically I'm most likely going to have had a 10 to 11 month "break" before a real second try - and it frustrates the crap out of me. I know the frustration I feel, and I can only imagine the level of frustration hitting a milestone of a year would be.
Sending lots of T&P's your way, that your body heals and you're able to try again sooner rather than later.
(((hugs)))
DX: 6/9/2011: Azoo ICSI/IVF only option for biological child
IVF #1: ER - 9/26 * ET - 10/1 * beta#1 10/13 - 140 * beta#2 10/17 - 477 * beta#3 10/20 - 1101
1st u/s at 6w6d - one hb * 2nd u/s at 8w3d - no hb detected 11/10/11 * natural m/c 11/13/11
FET #1 Jan/Feb 2012 - 3 delays - cancelled 2/13
FET #1.2 - May/June 2012 - ET 6/6/* beta#1 6/15 - 95 * beta #2 6/19 - 322 * beta #3 6/22 - 940
7/6 1st u/s @ 7 weeks - one beautiful hb - released from RE
EDD 2/22/2013
PAIF/SAIF/PGAL welcome
Me: 39, Dx DOR (FSH = 10.5, AMH = 0.43, best AFC = 10), AMA
MH: 37, Dx Obstructive Azoospermia, multiple successful sperm retrieval procedures
2/2012: IVF/ICSI #2 MDLF (4R, 4M, 1F) = BFP, saw heartbeat, missed m/c 9w0d, D&E
8/2012: IVF/ICSI #3 EPP/MDLF (7R, 2M, 1F) = BFN
12/2012: (New RE) Operative hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue
1/2013: IVF/ICSI #4 Low-dose stim/Antagonist (AFC=6); ER=1/26 (5R-couldn't access rt ovary, 5M, 4F), ET=1/29 (trans 3) = BFP!; 2/11 beta#1(13dp3dt)=2127, 2/13=3367; twin girls due 10/19/13
PAIF/SAIF very welcome!
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Don't apologize! Sometimes we all need a breather.
It's good that you took some time for yourself, although I wish you didn't have to go through so much in the meantime.
Being in limbo is so difficult, because it's hard to cheer everyone on and not feel sorry for yourself, too. You'll always belong here and we'll always be around when you're ready and able to be as well.
Unfortunately a lot of this process is the waiting game and it's not always the rainbows and bundles of joy that people would like to believe. ((hugs!)))
I completely understand the need for a break somtimes. I have been off and on for my entire 2-year journey. Sometimes I find it helpful to be here, sometimes I find that it makes me feel worse and obsessive, so I go away for a while. You do what you need to do.
I'm sorry about all the road blocks. I was on about a 6 month forced break, with a couple natural cycles thrown in when we could, and it was torture. I just wanted to get ON with it, already! I hope you find something to keep you occupied while you go through all of this.
Dx DOR (AMH .49), Stage 3/4 Endo, Septate Uterus
After 2 years, numerous tests, abdonimal surgery, and 2 IVF cycles, we are so grateful to be expecting.
Transferred 2 "perfect" 8-cell embies 6/12. Beta 1 6/25: 472! Beta 2 6/27: 1055!
First u/s shows TRIPLETS! WHAT?!?! Both embies stuck and one split. OMG
Levi, Henry, and Amelia were born healthy at 34w3d.
Ughhh! I am so sorry, that sounds exhausting and painful ~ both physically and emotionally!
I understand the forced break feeling, as I have to wait until at least July until I can try again thanks to the MTX ~ and I feel like the ticking time bomb (oops, I mean biological clock) is going to explode in my head. But you have to deal with surgeries on top of the waiting, and I am just so sorry you have to deal with any of it. It's so unfair and I don't blame you at all for taking a sanity break from The Bump!!
I am sending wishes for you that all of this @$*! is totally worth it in the end with a very happy time in your life to come! Big hugs to you!!
5 cycles of Clomid with satisfactory response=BFN's
Fibroid removal Nov2010
IUI Clomid #1 Feb 2011...BFN..damn it!
IUI Inject's #2 Apr 2011...CANCELLED...low estradiol
IUI Inject's #3 June 2011...BFN
IUI Inject's #4 Sept2011...BFFN
Lap Dec 2011...severe endo..cyst removed..some remains...
IVF#1 Apr 2012 ....cancelled due to over suppression
IVF#2 July 2012....6 follies...only 1 retrieved....BFFN
surgery suggested to move ovary to an better placement but....we moved two time zones away and are financially and emotionally empty
Me:34 Type 1 Diabetes, Ankylosing Spondylitis, Hypothyroid DH:35 Perfect
DX: Unexplained IF
Many IUI's with various meds all BFFN
IVF #1 11/11 canceled due to OHSS
IVF #2 Feb/March 2012 ET of 2 on day 3 4/7 BFP! 5/1 u/s blighted ovum
IVF #3 July 2012 ET of 3 on day 3 7/24 BFP!
Healthy baby girl born at 36w4d on 3/9/13
TTC#3
IVF #5 June 2018- PGS planned, no surviving embryos
IVF #6 August 2018- ET of 2 on day 3 - Chemical pregnancy
IVF #7 August 2019-....?
3 IUIs to get BFP w/baby #2
Lost baby #2 at nearly 12 weeks (D&C on 9/19/14)
5/09- Off BCP, 5/09-9/09- No period, 9/09-9/10- Lots of Tests & accupuncture
10/10 and 11/10- 2 rounds of Menopur + TI= BFNS
12/10-IUI #1 Menopur = BFN
1/11- IUI #2 Menopur = BFP, 2/11 missed mc at 9 weeks, D&C
5/11- Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum
6/11- IUI #3 Menopur = BFP, 8/11 missed mc at 11 weeks, D&C
1/12- Lap and Operative Hysteroscopy to remove uterine septum (again) & scar tissue
2/12- Stint Removal, 3/12 repeat SHG and HSG- showed scar tissue blocking right tube
4/12- Operative hysteroscopy (again), RE said he can now see right tube (yay!)
5/12- Stint removal, 6/12 repeat SHG and HSG-both tubes are open!
8/12- IUI #4 Bravelle = BFN
9/12-IUI #5 Bravelle = BFN
1/13- IVF #1, micro-flare protocol, 7R, 6F, 5dt of 2 AA embryos, 1 to freeze = BFP
Beta #1: 176, Beta #2: 422, EDD 10/8/13- it's TWINS!
*PAIF/SAIF always welcome*