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March 2012 Moms
psychgirl33
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~~~~ Monday's PityPartyB!tchFest ~~~~
psychgirl33
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B!tch, moan, whine, complain. Throw your self a little pity party here!
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Re: ~~~~ Monday's PityPartyB!tchFest ~~~~
Off B.C. Jan '06, started charting Feb '08, 2% morphology and PCOS, no O with meds,
IVF w/ICSI only option to conceive.
Licensed Foster Parents 07.11
Miracle BFP 7.20.11 1st beta 6,274! EDD 3.17.12
Miracle Baby born March 5, 2012 . 6lbs 1oz, 19 3/4"
Miracle BFP #2 10.8.12 - edd 6.20.13
Thanks buddy! And yes, last week! Next week I fully plan on napping like it's my job.
#1 - I've been up since 5AM for no reason ::yawn::
#2 - My dad and stepmom decided to go on vacation this week to Mexico. For starters, they knew my due date (3/10). Yes, we thought I would have had the baby a month ago (or earlier), but still. And, they have known about my scheduled c/s for 2 weeks now. Geez, don't let the birth of your granddaughter get in the way of your vacay plans. These are the same people that when I told them DH lost his job last month just said, "Sorry to hear" (while skiing on vacation in Colorado)
Ugh, I don't even know how to put my pity party into words.... I go between wanting to meet these baby girls and then being completely terrified to have them here. My doctor was on call last night and I was having some pretty bad cramps, I was about a minute away from calling her to see if I should come in (which I'm almost positive she would have had me come in because she knows that I'm miserable) but I couldn't do it because I was so scared. I'm scared about being a mom, I'm scared about how our life is going to change and I'm scared about completely changing the life of our dog (may sound stupid to some but he's been our baby for the last 3 years). I'm a hormonal mess and I know it! I've always wanted to be a mom, but I guess now that its so close to being a reality I'm sad to lose our happy family of 3.
Ugh! If you got through that rambling, thanks for listening! I feel a little better after getting it off my chest.
My BFP Chart
My pity party today is that some days I hate my job and this is one of those days. I do everything in my power to be respectful and kind to the teachers I work with and to do a good job. Many of the teachers do not extend that courtesy. And today I'm sick of dealing with them. They expect me to respect the work they do, but it's totally fine for them to be incredibly disrespectful to the work I do....nice.
I am working at a school where they expect every kid to fit a very narrow mold of "normal" and any kid that doesn't should just automatically be put in special education in their minds. We already have WAY to high of a number of kids in special ed in this building because they want EVERY kid who is not above grade level tested. I'm new here this year and that doesn't fly with me. My special ed teachers should NOT have 20 kids on their rosters who are almost all on grade level. That's not what special ed is for. I told one teacher that I wouldn't test a kid because he is above grade level on all assessments except one (where he was just barely below) and that he wouldn't qualify. She told me that in her opinion it's "ridiculous we accept such mediocrity". Ummmmmm......no one said she can't go above and beyond to help him pull himself out of "mediocrity", but he's not disabled!
So far I've tested 7 kids at this school alone this year And that's with me being out for a full month at the starting of the year. They have changed our paperwork we do, so now it takes many days to write up an evaluation report. Plus we have to collect all the data, and we have lots of other duties besides assessing. I'm only at the building 2 days a week. I wonder how many kids they expect me to evaluate? I've tested twice as many kids as a lot of my coworkers.
Sorry for the novel of a vent, I'm just feeling a little unappreciated. I knew it was like this when I took the job, but still. Some days it's very frustrating.
About 4 weeks ago, DH decided that we should host the "Family Game Night" we have the first Saturday of every month with his siblings and one couple his siblings have been friends with since high school. 4 weeks ago, it didn't seem like a bad idea to host 6 people (possibly only 4 because SiL just had her baby and she and BiL aren't sure they would venture out for an evening away when their LO is only 2 weeks old).
Well, DH has decided that Saturday should turn into the day he has people over to come help out with cleaning up this piece of land he bought-- trees need to be cut down, stuff burned, some old buildings cleaned out, that sort of stuff. The guest list is up to 20 people-- including my b!tch of a MiL (last time she was over, she opened all the closed doors and went poking around in stuff, even after I yelled at her. Thinking I might LOCK doors this time).... So far, only 6 people have responded as coming, the rest are "maybes." It's a HUGE difference to make/have food for 6 people vs 20 people... Seriously.
As terrible as this sounds, I almost hope the stress of the impending weekend will send me into labor this week so I can get out of it and not have to cook for or host potentially 20 people at 37.5 weeks pregnant.
Just discovered that the seal and nut under the kitchen sink has dry rotted. And it has been that way for awhile; just not sure how long.
So now, everything is pulled out and a fan is set up to dry out the board/shelf underneath. Not exactly something we wanted to have to deal with at this point in time.
Plusalso; it has just been one thing after another for the past year. We've had the place leveled (which didn't work out too well), and with everything still unlevel - doors won't shut (bedroom, bathroom, laundry), floorboard feels like there are holes under the carpet and laminate (there's none; it just FEELS that way).
We've had the flange in our shower rot out and a hole needed to be cut in the dining room ceiling in order to fix it.
The gutter was pulled away from the back of the house for who knows how long because the wood behind it was rotted out - which created a waterfall onto the chimney and wore out the caulking which we discovered allowed water into the fireplace when the hurricane blew through, weakened the wall by the back door so my DD put her hand through the wall when she was pulling open the door to let the dog out.
The a/c unit in the attic apparently sprang a leak and the water broke through the bay window in the kitchen and so that had to be repaired.
The only upside? We're renters and our landlords (my parents! EEP!) have insurance that has covered the cost of having all these repairs done. With the exception of the leveling; that was paid OOP since it was getting pretty bad and we knew that eventually they are going to want to sell the place and it was unsellable with that kind of foundational issue.
As much as we'd like to move; we're not planning on doing so for at LEAST another year. We're tired of having to go through all these fixes and I feel bad everytime I have to call my dad and tell him that, yet again, something else needs to be fixed. If only previous tenants had better maintained the place and/or kept them informed when things needed to be fixed it wouldn't all be falling apart all at once.
Thanks for reading that long ramble.
I don't even know if anyone will read this, but it feels good to get off my chest! My DH is "working all the time" and "is really busy" fine, i know he's gotta pay some bills but dang, I feel like I'm carrying the whole load. And not to sound selfish, but would it kill him to take me out on "date" or buy me something special, I mean, I am carrying HIS child! Dumb Ass!
Then his mom and dad have not invited us to dinner or anything (we've done all the inviting, offering etc) and this is their 1st grandchild. You would think they would be all excited... They spent all weekend putting together their baby stuff for "their house" (they've only gotten us a few outfits - all boy and we're team green - and a book where she recorded her voice - like I want to hear it anyways) and didn't ask us to help, or anything. I am so pissed because I know once the baby gets here she's going to be all over it and I'm going to be like, "Hell no! you better back off! Because my mom has been at my beck and call with anything we need both monitarily and physically!"
Then, it seems like I've just gotten this way over the past few days. Very I'm entitled and selfish attitude, which is usually not me! Not sure what's going on, but hoping it goes away soon!!!
*whiny voice* My pity party today is I feel like a lazy bum. I want to go to the gym but I?m having a very hard time convincing myself to get off the sofa L
MrsMincks-I second the carpal tunnel thing too. My fingers are ridiculous, and it?s basically all day long. They fall asleep really easily during the night and get all tingly and it?s just downright painful!
Mrshurst-I will join you with the feeling lazy thing too. I have no excuse either, I don?t work and I?m not on bedrest. But yet, when I do sit here all day and do nothing I get annoyed because I?m tired of just sitting here. WTH?!
Bets1009-I am joining you as well with the being scared outta my mind to be a mom. I could have written your post almost word for word (except we have 2 furry kids and I?m not having twins). I too, have been waiting for so long to be a mom and now I?m like ?what the hell have I done?!?
Thanks for creating this post, psychgirl3. It?s nice to be able to complain to people who actually know what I?m going through. J
This. I was taken off of bed rest last Thursday, so I'm out of excuses, too. MIL is flying in tomorrow, though, so I'm going to have to stop being so lazy and do SOMETHING. Whatever I don't get clean before she gets here, she'll clean herself and that always makes me feel horrible! (On the plus side, she will definitely be a big help in the cleaning department once LO gets here!)
Thank you
I guess I know in my heart everything will be ok but I can't help but be scared! Its nice to hear other people tell me it'll be ok though, so thank you again!
My BFP Chart
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. I'm so uncomfortable and am up every hour to run to the bathroom and I really just want to sleep well for one night before having to get up early, get ready, drive into work, drive back home, do dinner, and do it all again. I'm just so tired all the time. There is so much movement and hard/tightness and this sciatic lightening bolt thing makes me waddle everywhere and I'm just so tired.
Thank you. That is all.
If you were also thinking about a DSLR, might I recommend the Canon Rebel- super high quality video in addition to awesome pictures.
I just got back from waiting 45 minutes to get my Tdap shot. When I asked about the wait I got snapped at by a nurse, which of course got me more frustrated and I started crying (and then had a hard time getting ahold of myself) fun times at the Dr.'s office.
On top of that the Target ordeal is back on. I just got an email that the order is delayed again until 3/12. WTH I mailed the mistaken package back last week and the order is suppose to be all cancelled. I don't have time to keep contacting customer service to fix this mess. Grrr....
HR just now decided to tell me that I only get 30 days of leave, NOT 6-8 weeks like my boss had originally told me. Would have been nice to know that sooner than 4 days from my due date.
STINK.
1. My unborn child and my ribs are fighting for space; and it's making me sore and tired.
2. My back is KILLING. and the 3 massagers I have at worked (cheap ones from CVS) are not cutting it.
3. My brother lives in Korea (teaching English). Thought he was coming back in June, but just found out today that he can't afford it. Not sure when I'll see him again. Want to cry about it.
4. My doula really got under my skin yesterday... I can't decide if I was just in a sensitive mood or if she's going to just pi** me off during labor. Really annoyed because she is paid in full.
Someone I went to high school with announced that his wife was pregnant on Facebook today. This is roughly what he said:
"The one downside to trying to conceive with my wife is that I always seem to get it done in one shot."
I don't even know why, but this rubbed me SO MUCH the wrong way that I had to bite my virtual tongue not to write something really rude and bitchy in the comments (which were mostly congratulatory... altho some people did say "ew." But the most annoying were the ones that were like "oh, well you're just really efficient"). I guess the Bump (and in particular the TTGP board) has really conditioned me to be very sensitive about what I say regarding fertility since you never know who is struggling with it. I just thought that announcing it that way was beyond tacky and dickish. Another HS classmate recently posted, "My boys can swim!" which also rubs me the wrong way, but it doesn't seem as pompous as this one.... idk... I'm probably overreacting.
EW. I would've had to bite my tongue, too, from saying, "no, a-hole, you're just lucky. be grateful."
This is why I'm glad my OB doesn't start internals till 39 weeks unless something comes up.
My rant: They switched the toilet paper in one of my buildings to this crap that starts dissolving as soon as it gets wet. And I doubt it's "eco-friendly" paper, just some cheap sh*t. It makes using the bathroom a pain in the butt.