Disclaimer: This may come off as rambling. I'm quite sleep deprived.
Today I had my first actual come-apart in front of DH on Skype. Mind you, I've had a couple come-aparts during this deployment, but none actually in front of DH. LO had been inconsoleable for over an hour before I got online with DH (LO is teething I believe) and he certainly wasn't any happier after I got on Skype - or during the two out of two and a half hours I was on Skype with DH. DH finally got to see how it is when we have a not-so-good day here at home. I got so frustrated that I had to put LO in his bouncy seat a couple times so I could collect myself... I ended up crying my eyes out because I was so frustrated. DH tries, but he doesn't understand how difficult it really can be raising a LO by oneself - I've been raising LO by myself since we came home from the hospital (we being LO and me, as DH was already back at the mob station). The only ones I have nearby who even have a clue what deployment is really like are DH's parents - FIL was in the National Guard for 26 years. Everyone else that I know comments on "how hard it must be" and everything, but they really don't have a clue. DH followed his father's footsteps and is in the National Guard, so aside from drills, AT, schools, and obviously deployment, we lead a largely civillan lifestyle. The closest military base is over 2 hours away and we live 3 hours from where his unit is based. We also live out in the middle of nowhere, so there really aren't any options for contacting "Mommy and me" groups for socializing and getting out of the house. I really don't know anyone around here who's my age - most people I know are older, so they don't have babies LO's age. Any advice on maintaining my sanity until DH comes home in a few months? I feel like I'm at the end of my rope and it's fraying faster than I can tie a knot.
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