I feel like I try so hard and I feel like I'm making progress and the world around me is just trying it's absolute hardest to make it so hard!! There are pregnant women and babies literally everywhere I turn. Everywhere!! It's not bad enough that I feel like everyone I know is either pregnant or just had a baby but then they just have to be EVERYWHERE! Go to lunch- lady walks by and starts talking to a guy right behind me about her brand new baby.... co-worker goes and gets coffee and then for some stupid reason has to tell another co-worker about the new baby she saw in starbucks. Come on! Please, just one day where I don't have to see what I don't have all around me... one day. ::sigh:: Will I be less irritated by this when I have my rainbow in my belly? In my arms? Ever?
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one! My Blog
Re: Why is it EVERWHERE?
I don't know the answer, but it hurts for me too. ((Hugs))
Mother to DD, born sleeping on 9/28/11, and DS, born 3/12/13, 5lbs 13oz, 19in
I felt the same exact way after I lost caiden. It honestly took me getting pregnant again afterwards too not care about this issue. Yes the hurt & pain is still there but it makes you so happy to have some hope coming into your life. Everyone was telling me to wait to have a baby I am so glad I didn't take any of there advice & started trying. Once your preggers with your rainbow baby it will definetly take this feeling away trust me hun just hang in there.
I have an older child and so you could argue that I have had all those experiences already, but it still hurts me really bad. I can only hope when I get pregnant again it will be easier, but I think I'll just be too stressed out & paranoid.
I wish I could tell you it will be less irritating, but that's really up to you. I still have my moments. Initially when I see a pregnant woman I find myself wondering what her story is, how far along she is. But the moment she says/acts like all the other naive women, it seems to hurt and irritate me just as bad. I especially hate when people who have never experienced a loss decided to tell me a story about someone who has experienced a loss or even worse a "difficult pregnancy" (but they still have their baby). I always think "I don't need to hear about other people, I KNOW women who understand." KWIM?
*hugs* Every single day of TTCAL seemed as if pregnant women and newborn babies were stalking my every move. Sometimes it still feels that way...