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TTA sucks.

I just want to whine to people who might understand. Sorry in advance if this is annoying.

I'm still TTA from my ectopic (doctor said to wait 6-8 weeks before trying again - which I will totally 100% follow) and seeing everyone getting to cycle, getting BFPs, etc is just getting to me. I was fine for the first month but now that it is getting to be January, I'm dying to try again. :( Originally, my husband and I discussed waiting until March to try again - but I don't think we'll make it much past the recommended 8 weeks.

I don't even have my first post D&C period anyway, so it's not like I could try if I wanted to or was cleared to - but I'm just antsy now. I think having to start over once again & the due dates pushing into September 2012 is getting to me, by the time I can get back on Clomid, I'll be looking at a November/December due date.. maybe even 2013.

Here is a sprinkle sandwich cookie if you made it through my whine.. Happy New Year!



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  • I can't imagine how hard that is.  Our eight month treatment break for financials has been tough, but I at least had TI in the back of my mind for a "miracle". (Of course we're on the last cycle of the chance for a miracle so I know the chances are really really slim, but still.

    I'm so sorry for your loss, and on top of that having to wait. 

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
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  • Aw Shay, I can only imagine how much TTA sucks when all you want to be doing is the exact opposite. If it were me I would take this time to spoil myself a little: mani/pedi, mini shopping spree, or a nice date night with DH. Anything to make yourself feel a little better during this rough time.
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    IUI #1 1/13 = BFN
    IUI #2 = BFN
    IUI #3 + Clomid = BFN
    IUI #4 + Clomid = BFFN
    IUI #5 + Clomid = BFN
    IUI #6 + Clomid = BFN
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  • Awww, Shay. I can't imagine how hard this must be. I have to agree with you though - seeing all these cycle buddies and BFPs has me really anxious, too! Since my tubes are blocked, I know I can't get pregnant until I have I won't even be able to TTC again until at least April probably.

    I really wanted a 2012 baby, but I'll settle for getting pregnant in 2012! Here's to hoping we both get our BFPs this year!

    Lots of love and hugs! Hang in there girl, you are so close to being able to try again! :)


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  • I understand... we had to TTA the month before starting our IVF cycle and it sucked!  I hope the weeks fly by!  Try to think of you have a whole year to get KU and don't worry so much about actually getting an outisde baby in 2012... HTH!
    TTC #1 Since 4/2010, Cycle 30
    Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant :p
    Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
    4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
    7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
    IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
    FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
    4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
    FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
    FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
    1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB :), 2nd u/s 146bpm
    baby girl born 5/10/13

    TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
    Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28. 
    IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
    IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
    IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
    FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
    FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!!  Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!

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  • The 9-10 months off I had to take for lupron was brutal so I sorta get where you are coming from. Sorry you have to deal with this hun. ((Hugs))
  • We had to TTA after our m/c, too, and it was hard.  I am sorry that you're struggling right now, and I hope that 2012 will bring you that BFP and fast! :)
    TTC#1 since April 2011 - BFP 07.25.11 - EDD 04.06.12 - M/C 08.08.11 5wks/3days
    Diagnosed with endometriosis in 2006, PCOS in October 2011
    1st treatment cycle: Femara 5mg CD 3-7: cycle canceled due to no response on CD 12....but miraculously ended in a BFP 02.28.12! EDD 11.11.12.
    Beta #1 29.9 @ 10dpo, Beta #2 93.3 @12dpo.
    1st u/s March 15 - one beautiful gestational sac and yolk sac. 2nd u/s March 22 - HR 129 bpm and everything looks perfect! Praying so hard for this amazing miracle!

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  • Sorry hun :( TTA def does suck. I hope the rest of your 8 weeks flashes by and you can start again. But for now, heal. You will get this. 
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  • (((hugs)))

    I'm so sorry for your loss, and the fact that you have to TTA.

    I don't have experience with TTA, but I know how hard it is to be on a treatment break.  We weren't "good enough" for any treatment except IVF, and we waited a while before starting.  It's really hard to feel like you're just treading water waiting for life to happen, instead of at least pursuing what you want.  I hope the next couple of months fly by!

    Severe MFI. Me: supposedly all clear but eggs showed vacuoles.

    IVF #1 January 2012, ER Jan 14th: 34R, 27M, 23F. Day 3: 18 embies still strong. Day 5: zero "good," one "fair," the rest "poor." Transferred 3. None made it to blast or to freeze. Jan 28: BFN.

    Lucky IVF #2: Transferred two beautiful day three embies on St. Patrick's Day. BFP on HPT 7dp3dt. Beta 1 (14dpER)=106; Beta 2 (16dpER)=140; Beta 3 (19dpER)=264! First u/s 4.17.

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  • I know exactly how you feel! My RE made me wait 3 months before starting treatment again after my miscarriage in September. When I went in for my baseline on my 3rd month my labs were wacky and I had to wait yet again. It feels like taking one step forward and 3 steps back. Sending huge hugs to you!!
    TTC since April 2010

    Dx with LPD and low progesterone

    SA (Perfect) HSG (All clear)

    Sept 2010 - Nov 2010: Femara + Prometrium+ TI= BFN

    Feb 2011 - June 2011: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + TI = BFN

    July 2011: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + IUI #1= BFP!! EDD 4/13/12 <3

    Sept 2011: MMC @ 8 weeks 1 day

    Jan-Feb 2012: Femara + Follistim + HCG + Prometrium + IUI #2 & #3= BFN

    June 16, 2012 : Starting BCP for IVF #1

    July 2012: 7 Retrieved, 6 Mature, 4 Fertilized

    August 2012: 5dt of 1 early blast and 1 early morula = BFP!! Beta #1 10 Beta #2 26 Beta# 3 142 Beta #4 400 Beta #5 940 Ectopic pregnancy (2 methotrexate injections)

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  • I'm sorry Shay. TTA really does suck. I am 5 months deep on a year long forced break. It is no fun at all. I'm happy for others, but its hard not to feel left behind.
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  • I completely understand hon.  TTA stinks!  We're cleared to start next cycle but I've been bleeding for 13 of the last 16 days... even on BCPs... I have a feeling once I tell my RE this he'll push us back again.  

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  • I completely understand.  After my m/c we actually were told that we could try as soon as my body/beta was back to normal.  It took 2 full months for all my levels to come back to normal, it was hell.  I am so sorry you have to wait.  The waiting is the worst.  I have to admit that I didn't bump as much when I was waiting because I felt the exact same way as you do now.  (((HUGS)))
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    SA 4% morph ~ RE recommends IVF

    DH diagnosed with Varicocele ~ surgery Sept 2010

    DH results came back good! Jan 2011 ~ Recommend IUI

    IUI#1,2 & 3 ~ clomid = BFN

    IUI#4 7/26 ~ 5mg Femara = BFN

    IUI#5 8/22 ~ 150iu Bravelle + HCG + Booster = BFP!!!!

    9/27 @ 7weeks pg no h/b & enlarged yok sac (m/c)

    IUI#6 12/12 ~ 100mg clomid = BFN

    IUI#7 1/11 ~ 150iu Bravelle + HCG + Booster = BFFN

    IUI#8 2/8 ~ 225iu Bravelle + Ovidrel + Prometrium = BFP!!!

    6w3d ~ hb 126 8w3d ~ hb 160, March 30th~ Released from RE

    A/S June 15th ~ It's a BOY!

  • TTA absolutely sucks, and I'm sorry you have to wait.  
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    [center]BFP 06/06/2011 m/c 06/22/2011 5w5d[/center]
    [center]dx Luteal Phase Defect 07/15/2011[/center]
    [center]BFP 09/3/2011 = c/p 4w2d[/center]
    [center]Dx w/Antiphospholipid Syndrome[/center]
    [center]BFP 03/06/2012[/center]
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  • I can somewhat understand.  We had a 4 month break and it is so rough.  But just hang in there, Shay!  It is so close ((hugs))

    MFI, Lap on 7/21/11 - Stage III/IV Endo and Polyps removed by D&C
    IVF #1 with ICSI - ER 1/20 (16R, 12M, 10F), ET 1/23 (1-10 cell and 1-8cell transferred), BFP on 1/31 Beta #1 on 2/3 = 68, Beta #2 on 2/6 = 261 EDD 10/12/12  
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    FET #1 - 9/16/13 - BFN

    IVF #2 - ER 11/11/13 (24R, 18M, 16F), ET 11/16 (2 Grade A blasts)
    BFP on 11/23 Beta #1 = 76 EDD 8/2/14

  • I'm so sorry Shay. <3
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    [center]May 2011 DX: PCOS (insulin resistant)[/center][center]Clomid and Femara resistant [/center]

    [center]5/13/11 Metformin ER 1500 mg[/center]
    [center]6/10/11 IUI #1 with Follistim 75 IU = BFN[/center]
    [center]10/2011 IVF #1 cancelled. Taking a break from treatment.[/center]
    [center]2/16/12 Surprise BFP and miscarriage[/center]

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  • Thanks all <3 just getting it out and having my feelings validated make me feel a bit better. DH is on board with trying again after the 8 week mark and talked about his frustrations with the waiting too, so it's 'nice' to not be alone.
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