Hanging with my mom in the hospital

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Depressing post ahead.

I'm finally in FL with my mom. My amazing DH is hanging with Sam so I can be with her.

It is not good. I'm so mad at the world right now - I feel like disaster is at every corner. She is pretty aware of her situation, which is grim. I've cleaned my mom's butt - and creamed her sore butt - many times in the last few days and for the first time in my life I understand motherhood. She is so much to me. I have no idea who I will talk to everyday and who will love me like my mom does. I cannot stop crying. I cannot stop thinking some miracle will reverse her brain cancer and make her walk and talk again. What's weird is I dont feel like talking to my best friends. I'm so angry. She is a huge force in my life and I feel guilty for being able to walk and talk and laugh.

 

Sorry - I know, very very depressing post. I'm looking forward to us all coming to the hospital and having dinner with her. 

Jodi&Joe

(((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) I can't .....there are no words!  Other than I'm so sorry! 

Zenya

Oh I am so sorry.

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Hugs!!

ilovemygirls

Your post is close to my heart as I have had 3 friends that lost parents to brain cancer.  It is horrifying.  I am so very sorry.

ghm

Oh honey I'm so sorry. We're not there quite yet but I relate to your feelings. If you want my number, you can text me any time you need to unload.

belle204

(((hugs))) I can't imagine what you're going through.  I'll be praying for peace and comfort for you and your family.

lazysusan

I bet what you are doing right now means so much to your mom.  I'm glad you have such a great mom.  It sounds like you learned a lot from her.  Prayers of comfort for you, her, and your family...

CTFandme

ilovemygirls:

Your post is close to my heart as I have had 3 friends that lost parents to brain cancer.  It is horrifying.  I am so very sorry.

I have no words either.  I'm so sorry for you and your family.

I also have had three friends lose their moms to brain cancer this year.  Sad coincidence.

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Chapter79

(((hugs))) to you, your mom and your family. I am so sorry..

femmegem

There are no words. I'm just so sorry. (((hugs)))

Rebekah1021

Oh, I am so sorry. (((Hugs))) I wish there was something I can say or do to help you somehow. 

cooker71

lazysusan:

I bet what you are doing right now means so much to your mom.  I'm glad you have such a great mom.  It sounds like you learned a lot from her.  Prayers of comfort for you, her, and your family...

This. You're in my thoughts and prayers. 

JCS2007

My dad died from brain and lung cancer when I was 13.  It makes me sad to have lost him at such a young age, but I almost appreciate that I was unaware at the time of the reality of what was happening to him. My heart goes out to you. 

penguingrrl

I'm so so sorry.

Yodajo

I am so, so very sorry.  

It's not enough, but  (((hugs)))

 

karen6784

I am so sorry.  Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

shopgirl_07

I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're able to be with her.

rebs

I am so very sorry.  I will keep you and your mom in my thoughts and prayers.

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Thank you for the kind words. Thanks so much, ghm. And Auntie - you hit the nail on the head - it made me cry, but it is exactly right.

A-baybride

I'm so sorry. I hope you're able to enjoy your time with her as much as possible. 

justEK

vccake33:

She is so much to me. I have no idea who I will talk to everyday and who will love me like my mom does. I cannot stop crying. What's weird is I dont feel like talking to my best friends. I'm so angry. She is a huge force in my life and I feel guilty for being able to walk and talk and laugh.

(((HUGS)))

I'm so very sorry. I felt the same feeling when I was losing my mom, almost 6 years ago). I was seven months pregnant with my first and climbed up in the hospital bed with her many days. I just kept saying over and over that she still has too much to teach me. 

Tell her everything you think you want to say. Hug her as much as possible. 

I wish you all peace and strength.  

r9stedt

I am so sorry  ((hugs)).  How absolutely devastating. 

Mrs.Tony

Hugs! I am so very sorry.

Mominator

Girl, HUGE hugs to you. I am so sorry that you are dealing with this.

ghm

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MelandJeff

Oh sweetie. I am so so sorry. My heart breaks for you.

Praying for you and your mom, big time.